Discussion Did you cry your heart out recently ? What was the reason ?

[ChaseBees]

Yes. My boyfriend.

 

[Phosphophyllite]

I cry frequently as I get PTSD flashbacks on a daily basis on top of what I'm already going through, although it's all silent tears.

 

[Meditation guide]

I haven't cried in years but cried for two minutes yesterday. I felt so hopeless of anything being really nice for me. I'm always so stoic and brave about everything but once in a while I would like to be happy and not have to be so stoic all the time.

 

[Donk]

wish I could still cry. it was quite therapeutic.

 

[Shadowplay]

I teared up a little listening to the Aphex Twin song 'Alberto Balsam'. I'm not sure if it was the original or cover. Yes I was made to cry by a brand of shampoo and conditioner. :-P

 

[rivertone]

Yes, yesterday. I have been suffering from depression and suicidal ideation since I was in high school, but I have never been as close as I am now (SN is on its way in the mail now). The raw reality of it hit me yesterday, and I had what somebody told me was a panic attack (which I have never had before), causing me to start wailing, nearly vomiting, while my arms completely locked up and I couldn't move my fingers.

I was at work yesterday and when I went to eat lunch in the cafeteria, I heard some generic news background music playing on the TV while the screen was just displaying the weather forecasts for the coming days, and that almost made me start crying in public too for some reason.

 

[S like Siren]

I did. Very recently. My own ugliness makes me cry a lot. It reminds me, it's time to cry some more……

I would like to be your mirror and remind you every day how beautiful and wonderful you are ... you are not ugly, do not use this bad word with yourself ... I send you a hug

When I read your comments about wanting a loving girlfriend I often find myself thinking how much you would be a sweet and loving boyfriend with a girlfriend ... empathically i'm sorry that you don't have one.
I have been crying nonstop for three nights in a row ... because I have depressive crises, plus with my period these crises intensify even more.I cry because I feel fear ... I tremble and I am alone in my suffering ... I cry because I see everything dark and when inside the heart dies the hope is over.I cry because I can not believe that I am a prisoner of depression ... I cry because I am tired of all this shit. I cry in despair.I cry because i have noone.

 

[arie]

The last time I cried my eyes out was somewhere last year when I explained some of what I was going through to a friend. The first time I opened up to someone other than a therapist and he was really kind and accepting. Since then I've told a few others but no tears for some reason. I'd be down for a good cry sesh tho, I miss it

 

[forgotten15]

Cried for a good few hours straight cuddling a glass of SN. Realising how fucking lonely I am and it's all my own doing. It sucks

I am sorry you are suffering.

 

[A_miStake_of_NATURE]

I would like to be your mirror and remind you every day how beautiful and wonderful you are ... you are not ugly, do not use this bad word with yourself ... I send you a hug

Thank you so much. You're very nice and kind

 

[noname223]

SInce I am taking my medication (neuroleptics and mood stabilizer) I am barely able to cry. Sometimes it is an advantage sometimes it is sad.

 

[Darkmoon Queen]

The powerlessness of watching history repeat itself.

It's as if everyone I've ever met is the same person but in a different skin and that alone is enough to make me want to kill myself.

 

[irememberinnocence]

I did, because of people I've lost (one died, the other I just can't speak with). Actually cried on and off for days and it felt soo good. For a few hours I actually felt emotionally refreshed, kinda like when you take a shower and all the grime gets washed away. That's what it felt like, but on a soul level. Shame the feeling couldn't last but it was uplifting while it did.

 

[52shriek]

I cried on Sunday when I opened up to my partner about how I was feeling. I was mostly grieving myself, the person that I managed to be for a few years in between bouts of more and more severe depression, the person that I know will never be back, and here I am, having lost the most important person in my life: myself.

 

[Hurt]

Nope. I don't cry anymore. My life sucks so much that all I want is to kms. It's like all my feelingd are cancelled. I am only angry sometimes. At myself.

 

[ExLife]

I lost my second parent and can't cope with the fact.

 

[stellabelle]

Just want to know, if you did cry, what was it about.

Please share your grief without hesitation.

Grief about the fact I couldn't change the way people treated me and why I was outcasted, fucked with, abused, lied to, pushed to suicide, thrown into a nightmare without support or help, pushed away, fucked with some more, and fucked with some more. The broken relationship, my mother and how and why she did this to me, the fact that I never got up and physically defended myself against her, that I never took the first swing, that I couldn't defend myself against men, or how they'd do things to me that I didn't like or want to do, that my sisters never loved me or protected me, they just threw me away and used my mother, that I couldn't get on in life or be respected. That I never did get anywhere in life because of how I was treated, infantilized, abused, pushed to OD everyday, screamed at for failing in school instead of being given a tutor or not being screamed at every day, all of it. Being cheated out of life, love, privacy, happiness, respect, all of that,

 

[exhausteduntreatable]

Last time was years ago when my 19 year old dog was euthanized. Cried for days. Cried myself to sleep. I can't cry anymore. I can be at the end of my rope, absolutely distraught, but no tears will come.

 

[PeacefulTonic]

My life was worth living up until 3 months ago. I ruined everything. My relationship with the love of my life. Totally destroyed her mental health. My health is deteriorating. Everything is unfixable, and there's no way to move forward. I cried my heart out the other day cause I know there's no other option but to ctb, and I'm going to end up hurting more people cause of ctb as well. The only other option is to suffer for the rest of my life, I can't do that

 

[bunnies]

a few hours ago at work today, in the bathroom. i tried to make it quick and quiet but it was pretty deep sobbing, and it's just about me and my frustration with being a weird person. i have felt like an alien my entire life. i am not good at anything, i can't take care of myself, and i am an absolutely useless person. it probably doesn't sound like a big deal but i am 31 years old and failing at a dead end $13/hr job that i am trying my absolute hardest to be good at. it wasn't one thing or anyone, it was everything and me. i hate myself so much and i was never supposed to be here. i was not meant to be a person.

 

[ocheeva]

I cry often, for the general tragedy of my life. It's pretty sad to think you're gonna die soon and people will be hurt. My sister's future children will have a suicided aunt who they never met. My father would suffer a lot I think, but he is very strong and well-balanced. Plus, he has my sister, so I know he will get over it. Honestly, my depressed ass is such a drag that if you look at it objectively, you will come to the conclusion that people will be much better off after I'm out of the picture. It still hurts though. Humans weren't made to be aware of the moment of their own death. I keep trying to imagine what It would be like to drink that sn and wait for unconsciousness, but my mind just can't process it. Makes sense.. My SI just stops me from rationalizing my death. Life is all I've ever known, and my fucking human brain just cannot accept non-existence. Fuck this. What a fucking curse.

a few hours ago at work today, in the bathroom. i tried to make it quick and quiet but it was pretty deep sobbing, and it's just about me and my frustration with being a weird person. i have felt like an alien my entire life. i am not good at anything, i can't take care of myself, and i am an absolutely useless person. it probably doesn't sound like a big deal but i am 31 years old and failing at a dead end $13/hr job that i am trying my absolute hardest to be good at. it wasn't one thing or anyone, it was everything and me. i hate myself so much and i was never supposed to be here. i was not meant to be a person.

I understand you deeply my friend, and I admire your strength.

 

[DetachedDreamer97]

I did not cry, but I did she'd some tears.

I watched a scene of Justice League where Solomon dies and got his reward.