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ABadPerson

ABadPerson

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I feel like my long use of different antidepressants has rather worsened my baseline over improved my mental state on it; I only ever noticed feeling the same utter intolerance towards life I always felt prior while on it and maybe even more anxious than prior, so more recently started to forget entirely taking it.

I grew far more depressed and, more specifically, far more anxious from the long withdrawal than I felt in the past to where I did something stupid without much planning.

My partner now wants me to just slowly discontinue all of the medication entirely since they never liked the idea in the first place, avoiding meds for what they deem as entirely external problems.

But I'm not sure, how are your experiences been? Do you feel the same way?
 
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February_In_April

There a time to talk & a time to listen
Apr 5, 2026
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I've been doing a lot of medications off and on myself for a long time and some of them definitely made me feel far worse than others. I think what I'm on right now is pretty solid, but one of them I may need to change due to it affecting my mood. It's just making me feel dull in lowering all my feelings, happiness, sadness you name it. For me I definitely think I'll be on pills for the long run because I definitely can't get off of certain ones as I have tried and made some of the symptoms. I've had worse than what they were before. But that's just been my experience so far.
 
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I don't like this world.
Aug 20, 2025
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I haven't been on medication since I was a teenager, about a decade ago. But when I was on SSRIs I found they changed pretty much nothing. I didn't feel better or worse. I was just depressed and numb all the time. I thought the medication was a waste of money.
 
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neurotoxic

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they help me, it took forever to find a combo that works, and they dont make me magically want to live, but they do help me function and get out of bed. I think you probably wont find many positive or unbiased opinions about meds or psychiatry in general here tho, there's a pretty strong anti-psychiatry sentiment.
 
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wait i'm goated
Feb 12, 2023
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i've been on a couple different meds throughout my life. most of them didn't really do anything, some of them made things worse, but the last combo i had was helpful. i felt a lot more motivated and less scatterbrained. didn't help with suicidal thoughts at all, but it's not supposed to.
i've always been a little annoyed by the people who write off all psychiatry meds as bad. a lot of people are valid in their reasoning and i even agree with some of their sentiments, but a lot of people very clearly just misunderstood what their meds were supposed to do. you don't just take them and then go about life as normal, not doing anything else. they're more of a crutch or aid to assist you while you take further steps.
maybe not a great comparison (i don't love comparing mental issues to physical issues), but it's like injuring your leg, getting surgery/taking painkillers, never attempting to exercise the leg or walk on it, and then calling surgery/meds useless because it's still difficult to walk. the surgery and meds weren't supposed to heal your leg completely. they were just there to get you to a point where you could work towards walking again.

of course, psych meds are useless and even harmful to a lot of people for many different reasons. plus, a lot of people have access to psych meds but lack any other resources to improve their mental health or change their situation, so they just can't really do anything and the meds will be mostly useless. i'm obviously not talking about those people, and you might fall into those categories. still, it's just ridiculous to write the meds off completely. they have their place.

sorry i'm always yapping under your posts gng
 
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i've been on a couple different meds throughout my life. most of them didn't really do anything, some of them made things worse, but the last combo i had was helpful. i felt a lot more motivated and less scatterbrained. didn't help with suicidal thoughts at all, but it's not supposed to.
i've always been a little annoyed by the people who write off all psychiatry meds as bad. a lot of people are valid in their reasoning and i even agree with some of their sentiments, but a lot of people very clearly just misunderstood what their meds were supposed to do. you don't just take them and then go about life as normal, not doing anything else. they're more of a crutch or aid to assist you while you take further steps.
maybe not a great comparison (i don't love comparing mental issues to physical issues), but it's like injuring your leg, getting surgery/taking painkillers, never attempting to exercise the leg or walk on it, and then calling surgery/meds useless because it's still difficult to walk. the surgery and meds weren't supposed to heal your leg completely. they were just there to get you to a point where you could work towards walking again.

of course, psych meds are useless and even harmful to a lot of people for many different reasons. plus, a lot of people have access to psych meds but lack any other resources to improve their mental health or change their situation, so they just can't really do anything and the meds will be mostly useless. i'm obviously not talking about those people, and you might fall into those categories. still, it's just ridiculous to write the meds off completely. they have their place.

sorry i'm always yapping under your posts gng
I get what you mean, I never really expected for any of the meds I been taking to be particularly life-changing, as I said in past posts I always knew it won't be. I'm just particularly concerned on how I've grown to be completely reliant on them to even function now while I've still likely haven't found the right combo for myself, I wouldn't have mind it if it didn't also seem to make my growingly more anxious while on any I been on but that's besides the point; in general I view it as just aid for what is usually an external issue for majority of people on this site, or well, external outside of generalised depression/anxiety.

I wrote a long reply about this before but no matter how much medication works for an individual, for most people all that happens is that they are then thrusted back into the situation that partially links back to the reason of their suicidal intent in the first place with no real support given on those issues.
Especially with how more and more of that external support in the form of benefits, welfare, centres, orphanages, gender-affirming care, childcare, charitable institutions etc are only being more and more inaccessible as the years go by... Only makes things harder on people.

I mean sure, there are plenty who with minimal support alongside medication can do wonders on their life and health, absolutely. But it's just not the case for many others, who like you pointed out, need far greater support than what they have available to them; with "fixes" that seem utterly impossible given the current state of society or even utterly meaningless given the multitude of other issues it could bring about, especially under Trump's administration when America has historically shown time and time again a shift in public attitudes of the masses towards certain groups depending on the president (sorry for suddenly getting a bit political).

Thats why, despite personally holding a more neutral stance on medication, I very much understand the sentiments of my partner and a lot of the users of this site share towards medication when they themselves are likely victim of the shitty external support systems currently available.

Also don't apologise I'm particularly a yapper myself so I do enjoy when there's someone else to bounce off of. đŸ˜¸
 

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