- May 4, 2018
For me, if I was free of the threat of being put in a psych ward, I would say it is simple problem solving. My metabolism and ability to be fit is gone, my personality is gone(depersonalization) and feel great sadness that the person I had worked so hard to develop for years is gone forever. The series of events that happened to mold me into the person I was can't happen again due to my edge being gone. I do not enjoy life, only the thought that I have the ability to end my life. My parents have talked to me like a child for years and they don't understand it is offensive, demeaning and impossible to not hate. If they just pretended to respect me and my opinions it might have led to me being more close to them. This is not the reason I am killing myself though because I could have gotten out of the house if I was still myself. Also, my parents lied about that which got me called schizo and drugged into torture. They still claim they trust psychiatry. It is hilarious. Fuck this orwellian system of thought policing, I maintain that my thoughts that got me called shizo were realistic, but if I want to think that there's a unicorn up my asshole what gives you the right to say I can't think that and that I have to take mind altering drugs that have svere side effects taht medical professionals don't test themselves or admit are more harmful that helpful in the long run according to studies. Old school shamans try their concoctions because they have no side effects. Natural remedies do not have side effects because they respect what human brains need. They do not try to change the brains that we have evolved over millions of years/were from above. Simple and smooth: if you don't believe it is a human rights violation to force foreign substances into a person's body you are in support of genociding unique people. Yes people are much more likely to commit suicide who take psychotropic drugs. I'll fuck Miranda Kerr before I call them "meds".