so a few months ago during an extreme depressive episode i got given ativan from a school nurse (no i didn't tell them what was going on i said i just wanted some for a presentation at college) and ever since then i've been taking a lot of them from different sources and i feel really horrible and i feel like i just fucked myself up majorly. has anyone else had experience with benzodiazepine addiction? i'm feeling really bad about this.
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Chabrychek
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- Dec 23, 2025
- 40
I once became addicted to them out of stupidity. I stopped taking them myself, and yeah it was difficult at first, but I managed. But now I am in absolute mental ruin, and they are the only thing that allows me to function normally. But it's a vicious cycle, so unfortunately, I've relapsed into addiction.
ive noticed over the past few weeks its made my thought of suicide less frequent, but at what cost right? i don't have access to a real doctor or any sort of psychiatric help, so i use it to self medicate, however it just feels so wrong to be doing this. idk i feel really stupid.
Chabrychek
Member
- Dec 23, 2025
- 40
In the long run, this isn't a good treatment. It's not a treatment at all. Benzos work similarly to alcohol, you don't want to drown out every fear. But I don't know what else we can do? I suppose you need a proper diagnosis, which will take money and a lot of time,and then choose the right medication, which will also take a lot of money and time. You have to go to therapy, which will also take a lot of money and time. Many times I have tried to "fix" my life on my own, without the support of a psychiatrist, and I always end up the same. So I understand you, I feel stupid too
