Desperate to hang but scared to be paralyzed

[Hollowillow]

How to avoid being paralyzed uf I fail? Can partial hanging do it too?

How much for the N & SN recipe? Seems so hard and scary to puke...

Even if I convince my landlird to change everything contaminated with the acid or move me elsewhere... I still luve in a world where my pain is mocked as just in my head, police said I deserved assault... I want out... I can't bear to think of all the stuff I want to do but can't... Drowning in depression... My head hurts so much. Eyes & lungs burns from the acid... Everywhere... I'm melting like the witch in Oz everytime I shower...

And the concussion from the car accident...

I... Am no longer viable... Never was...

So scared. I want to live. But I ruined it.

The vaccine passport ruined the tiny dignity & social particupation I gad left.

Oh the irony... Suicidal but can't dare to take the vax. The deaths I saw were too slow & horrible...

I wish someone could help me sepuku... I'm so ashamed but can't be allowed to fix my mistake...

How can I get euthanasia when no one believe anything.

Urg...

 

[trizzy]

@Hollowillow did you have a physical injury? I am going through a lot of physical injury myself as well

 

[Hollowillow]

@Hollowillow did you have a physical injury? I am going through a lot of physical injury myself as well

Yes... *Hugs you tight* even when I got hit by a car my pain was dismissed as just in my head. I lived 22 years with mold, used acid home made cleaners to prevent that... Poisonned everything. My eyes, skin, lungs, gut, brain burn & waste away. My tongue & throat sweel. I feel spasms and stabbing all over. Too dizzy to go out. But the worst is the psychiatric invalidation. I'd be ok if the landlird agreed to send cleaners & make me pay to replace stuff... But mocked everywhere. Told to tolerate distress. Brain in such fire I scream hysterical. Psychiatry calls tomorrow to evaluate me but won't help me physically. Probably will give me more personality disorders to mock me...

How can I kill myself with a rope the 1rst try without paralyzis?

How will you? Why? Pains? How do you cope? *Hugs* I'm scared & lonely. Thank you

 

[trizzy]

I thought about CTB but want to survive even though I am rotting like hell. I got fried by the vaccine shot. and had a couple medical procedures gone horrible wrong - it basically blew up by brain and made my body go haywire. loss vision, concussion like feeling all day, can't hear, insomnia, loss motor skills, loss memory, awareness, and more. I am not doing to well coping at the moment.....

 

[Zegers]

I want to live

This.

This kind of post makes me think... the fact is that when i was on that fourth floor i would have jumped and i think if i had the N/SN in front of me i would drink it like fresh water.

 

[Astronauta]

Como evitar ficar paralisado se eu falhar? O enforcamento parcial também pode fazer isso?

Quanto custa a receita N&SN? Parece tão difícil e assustador vomitar...

Mesmo que eu convença meu senhorio a mudar tudo contaminado com o ácido ou me mudar para outro lugar... eu ainda amo um mundo onde minha dor é ridicularizada como apenas na minha cabeça, a polícia disse que eu merecia agressão... eu quero sair.. Não suporto pensar em todas as coisas que quero fazer, mas não consigo... Afogar-me em depressão... Minha cabeça dói tanto. Olhos e pulmões queimam com o ácido... em todos os lugares... estou derretendo como a bruxa em Oz toda vez que tomo banho...

E a concussão do acidente de carro...

Eu... Já não sou viável... Nunca fui...

Tão assustado. Eu quero viver. Mas eu arruinei.

O passaporte da vacina arruinou a diminuta dignidade e participação social que eu tinha deixado.

Oh, ironia... Suicida, mas não ousa tomar a vacina. As mortes que vi foram muito lentas e horríveis...

Eu gostaria que alguém pudesse me ajudar sepuku... Estou tão envergonhado, mas não posso corrigir meu erro...

Como posso obter a eutanásia quando ninguém acredita em nada.

Urg...

A vacina acabou com minha saúde , sonhos e toda minha vida. Me arrependo profundamente de ter tomado. Agora só me resta CTB.

 

[trizzy]

A vacina acabou com minha saúde , sonhos e toda minha vida. Me arrependo profundamente de ter tomado. Agora só me resta CTB.

did you get seriously injured from the vaccine?

 

[Astronauta]

Sim, infelizmente. Corpo queimando, formigando, e lâminas cortando. Perdi força muscular e pulmao atingido.
Só desejo a morte.

 

[trizzy]

Sim, infelizmente. Corpo queimando, formigando, e lâminas cortando. Perdi força muscular e pulmao atingido.
Só desejo a morte.

very sorry to hear about it. it ruined my life also. was it the third vaccine for you before you got sick?

 

[Astronauta]

Não. Foi a primeira dose. Não tomou nenhuma outra depois .
Eu me vacinei em Julho de 2021 astrazeneca e o primeiro dia apareceu sintomas e piora desde então.
Essas vacinas são roleta russa.
Existe casos , a mídia não mostra muitos. Vi uma pessoa tbm com a primeira dose e foi aparecer sintomas já estava com 11 meses.
É uma roleta russa. As vezes nem foi a terceira dose. Pode ter sido qualquer uma delas. Mas não tem como saber.

 

[Lookingtotalk]

How to avoid being paralyzed uf I fail? Can partial hanging do it too?

How much for the N & SN recipe? Seems so hard and scary to puke...

Even if I convince my landlird to change everything contaminated with the acid or move me elsewhere... I still luve in a world where my pain is mocked as just in my head, police said I deserved assault... I want out... I can't bear to think of all the stuff I want to do but can't... Drowning in depression... My head hurts so much. Eyes & lungs burns from the acid... Everywhere... I'm melting like the witch in Oz everytime I shower...

And the concussion from the car accident...

I... Am no longer viable... Never was...

So scared. I want to live. But I ruined it.

The vaccine passport ruined the tiny dignity & social particupation I gad left.

Oh the irony... Suicidal but can't dare to take the vax. The deaths I saw were too slow & horrible...

I wish someone could help me sepuku... I'm so ashamed but can't be allowed to fix my mistake...

How can I get euthanasia when no one believe anything.

Urg...

i did full suspension hanging, i wasnt paralyzed i just kept pulling my self back up from SI, i think the issue is the drop, i had no drop, most people do full suspension kick chair at same level or small drop, then u just need to hope rope is strong and u are not interrupted for 30 min,i failed obv

 

[Hollowillow]

I thought about CTB but want to survive even though I am rotting like hell. I got fried by the vaccine shot. and had a couple medical procedures gone horrible wrong - it basically blew up by brain and made my body go haywire. loss vision, concussion like feeling all day, can't hear, insomnia, loss motor skills, loss memory, awareness, and more. I am not doing to well coping at the moment.....

How did you blow your brain? I got hit by a car. Vitamin b rebuild nerves, c joints & muscles. But hard to keep up when poisonned.

The vax can modify dna to force cells to produce viruses... Forever? Even our children... Mercola might have ways to improve.

i did full suspension hanging, i wasnt paralyzed i just kept pulling my self back up from SI, i think the issue is the drop, i had no drop, most people do full suspension kick chair at same level or small drop, then u just need to hope rope is strong and u are not interrupted for 30 min,i failed obv

You moved yourself down gently so you didn't break your neck? You aborted willingly? That's not failure. I'm scared too. Quit 2 partial hanging... i'm in pain... I wish i could remove the acid embeded in everything... At least to save my eyes & watch tv... I like this site better though...

This.

This kind of post makes me think... the fact is that when i was on that fourth floor i would have jumped and i think if i had the N/SN in front of me i would drink it like fresh water.

You need minimum... 10 floors to have a chance to die? I wish I could live but can't...

A vacina acabou com minha saúde , sonhos e toda minha vida. Me arrependo profundamente de ter tomado. Agora só me resta CTB.

Where is the translation button, wow you translated me!

very sorry to hear about it. it ruined my life also. was it the third vaccine for you before you got sick?

I was vax injured in 1996 or so... The social ostracization I had since birth was hard, but with the vaccine passport denying me public places... It was truly hell. Not as much as the side effects though...

Não. Foi a primeira dose. Não tomou nenhuma outra depois .
Eu me vacinei em Julho de 2021 astrazeneca e o primeiro dia apareceu sintomas e piora desde então.
Essas vacinas são roleta russa.
Existe casos , a mídia não mostra muitos. Vi uma pessoa tbm com a primeira dose e foi aparecer sintomas já estava com 11 meses.
É uma roleta russa. As vezes nem foi a terceira dose. Pode ter sido qualquer uma delas. Mas não tem como saber.

I still don't know how to translate? 1rst dose? Hope you won't take more

 

[FuneralCry]

It's so horrifying the thought of hanging going wrong. The fear of failure is what has always held me back from attempting. In an ideal world none of us would have to resort to methods as awful as this. Humans deserve the option of euthanasia as there are an unlimited amount of ways that life can torture us.