Help Desesperate thinking about jumping

[usedtobright]

All the methods I think of seem to be unsafe in terms of the possibility of remaining vegetative. I would like to ctb quiet and in my bed, but it seems to be impossible. The only option I find is to jump, but it scares me a lot. I don't know what to do

 

[gimzero]

Today near my house a woman jump from the fourth so it need guts.

 

[Teddybear]

Jumping is actually a safe method to go *if* you jump from high on enough and nothing stops your fall.

And therein lies the problem: Too shallow and you only break a lot of bones and you'd be lucky if you end up "vegetative".

But high enough and your inborn fear of heights will hold you back. That and the fear: "What, if I have a change of heart on my looong way down?!"

 

[jodes2]

I was in exactly the same position. Then I bought SN and shortly after had nothing short of a miracle in recovery process. I hope you can do the same

 

[FuneralCry]

I also find jumping to be a terrifying method but I really envy those with the courage for it. I just hate the fact that this world we live in denies us peaceful and reliable options of ways to be free from all suffering, it's just so unfair. When it's this difficult to die existence is nothing more than a prison and it's awful how we have to struggle so much in finding ways to leave. I also wish to just pass away peacefully and I find the thought of ctb failing to be so horrific, but I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for.

 

[Teddybear]

Its their way of punishing us for not conforming to their standards: Setence of life, with no chance for parole.

 

[deathissosad]

What do you think a persons thoughts are in the free fall?

 

[Teddybear]

What do you think a persons thoughts are in the free fall?

Well, that's one of the great mysteries stuck between life & death. I actually doubt there'll be much space left for "clear thought". You'd be in a state of combined shock and sensory deprivation, only feeling the wind blowing over your face and seeing the ground rushing towards you.

Your natural fear of heights will occupy most of your senses. What's left of your mind will march in whatever direction your final emotion shall guide it: Anticipation or Regret.

And as longer the fall as more time you'll have for the former to change into the later.

 

[swanlife]

What do you think a persons thoughts are in the free fall?

must be horrible tbh, on the other side you have more minutes to think when taking SN. It sucks that suicide is so difficult

 

[deadliftEnjoyer]

What do you think a persons thoughts are in the free fall?

I read somewhere that jumping survivors usually felt regret on their way down, and were thinking that all their life problems could be fixed

 

[Teddybear]

I read somewhere that jumping survivors usually felt regret on their way down, and were thinking that all their life problems could be fixed

And, did they get fixed?

 

[Sysiphos]

I read somewhere that jumping survivors usually felt regret on their way down, and were thinking that all their life problems could be fixed

I love to learn how they conduct this research

 

[DeathBecomesMe_2021]

Today near my house a woman jump from the fourth so it need guts.

Did she survive? The fourth floor doesn't sound like it would be high enough to cause death on impact.

 

[deadliftEnjoyer]

And, did they get fixed?

I read it in a article like this one:

Second Chances: 'I survived jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge'

Meet two men with an incredible connection. They jumped off the Golden Gate Bridge, and survived. Both say the moment their fingers left the railing, they felt instant regret. It's a story of mistakes, survival, and second chances.

abc7news.com

The survivors seem to have made positive changes to their lifes

 

[theboy]

I love to learn how they conduct this research

the cases of those who survived the fall are being investigated

All the methods I think of seem to be unsafe in terms of the possibility of remaining vegetative. I would like to ctb quiet and in my bed, but it seems to be impossible. The only option I find is to jump, but it scares me a lot. I don't know what to do

I understand what you're saying... I live in a 25-story building and I just want to jump. I'm terrified to do it and when I'm up there, I shake like jelly and sweat like a pig.

 

[Teddybear]

I read it in a article like this one:

Second Chances: 'I survived jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge'

Meet two men with an incredible connection. They jumped off the Golden Gate Bridge, and survived. Both say the moment their fingers left the railing, they felt instant regret. It's a story of mistakes, survival, and second chances.

abc7news.com

The survivors seem to have made positive changes to their lifes

And I naturally belief that, because anti-ss ABC News won't tell no lie:

ABC News apologizes for 'serious error' and suspends reporter Brian Ross over faulty Michael Flynn story

NEW YORK — ABC News apologized Saturday for a “serious error” and suspended investigative reporter Brian Ross for four weeks without pay for the network’s incorrect Michael Flynn report. Ross had i…

eu.jacksonville.com

 

[HateMyPointlessLife]

I've failed too many times with other methods. I don't trust myself anymore using them. So I'm just hoping to get my opportunity to be able to jump from somewhere soon. And hope nothing or no one intervenes. And hope I can use impulsiveness to make me go through with it. And hope the fall does the rest.

 

[NoHorizon]

I went to Beachy Head earlier this year with the intention of jumping, or at least scouting it out if I couldn't face it, and the SI kicked in hard. While I like the idea of a beautiful view followed by an instant death I think it'd take an unimaginable level of effort to overcome the SI.

 

[Unending]

seem to be unsafe in terms of the possibility of remaining vegetative

Unfortunately, this seems to make the list of top reasons why ctb'ing is such a difficult process and why I am still here. Jumping personally is a method that I would want to avoid at all costs but everyone has different primary fears in this regard. I'm genuinely sorry for your pain to be driving you towards this. You deserve so so much better than the pain you're experiencing.
Edit: Oh, yes and I would like to add that the fear of regretting things in my last moments with jumping is a much stronger fear than that of any other method I've thought about. I feel like all the stress of the situation may just exacerbate the less desirable aspects of making this decision for me atleast.

 

[lebrodude]

As a method it's terrifying and is certain death if you do it from high enough.

I don't think I'd ever be able to do it so it's not one I would consider, I've always been scared of heights so that's perhaps why !

 

[Lostworld01]

The thought of jumping puts me off cause I don't like heights, can't get hold of SN, so only leaves hanging left

 

[onedayitsmytime]

I tried jumping 2 years. Once you overcome getting off and your in mid air there is really no going back. The only thing I learned is that it is extremely agonizing if you fail. I think extreme heights guarantee death but if you put much thought into it then you would end up backing out. The method of jumping I used was driving on the expressway until I got to an elevated enough point where I could see the treetops from the acres of land next to the expressway, once I pulled over I put on the blinkers, played some music to hype me up, and leaped for the most distance from my jumpoff point without an issue. I failed terribly though, had to walk through the land, crawl under a fence, get back to an interstate road, walk to the middle of traffic avoiding speeding cars, and pray that someone see me and call state troopers. I waited for hours but eventually state troopers stopped and got an ambulance to pick me up on a stretcher and take me to a hospital. Even though i survived with non life threatening injuries (fractured ribs, fractured lung, bilateral fractured wrists, fractured ankles, fractured pelvic, fractured nose, and a very deep wound near my eyebrow) i feel like ctb using this method is reliable from a great height. This is my plan b until I hear news about N. Since the experience was so bad I've been discouraged and kind of have to work myself up on overcoming it before trying again. Also because the thought of failing is always in the back of my head. Make sure your jumping from a very high place to make sure you can get your freedom. Best of luck!