Depression

[Lost_my_soul]

What are some of the bad habits that you have that are making you feel suicidal?

 

[Darkover]

smoking weed caused me to get addicted to listening to music with headphone resulting in a brain injury

 

[SVEN]

Mainly living; a bad habit I fervently hope to quit as soon as I am clear of domestic commitments.

 

[Lost_my_soul]

smoking weed caused me to get addicted to listening to music with headphone resulting in a brain injury

sorry to hear this, that must be horrific.

Mainly living; a bad habit I fervently hope to quit as soon as I am clear of domestic commitments.

Do you believe if a miracle happens, things will turn around?

 

[Praestat_Mori]

None of my (bad) habits make / made me suicidal. It's a big failure in life that made me suicidal.

 

[SVEN]

sorry to hear this, that must be horrific.

Do you believe if a miracle happens, things will turn around?

Never having witnessed, far less experienced a miracle I can't imagine any event(s) which conform to the laws of nature which would change anything in any signifigant way.

 

[LonelyKitten]

Checking out of reality so much via daydreaming that I forgot how cruel the world was (even though that was the exact reason I started escaping reality via daydreams as a child...) until it was too late and I steered myself right back into the same hell I somehow managed to escape from as an adult.
Maybe with my new experiences I could have transformed that situation into something liveable, but instead I doubled down on the same coping mechanism until everything has become very very messed up.