Depression vs. Recovery: Who Will Win?

[GravityUtilizer]

I've basically given up trying to predict when I might have a good day or a day when the depression comes at me in so many black waves. I mean, sometimes I feel like, maybe I can recover! Some days I'm like I better just kill myself before the summer's out.

I'm basically planning for both outcomes at the same time.

Schrodinger's suicide, if you will.

 

[so tired or manic]

I flip between the two quite frequently throughout the day so I can completely relate to Schrodinger's suicide.

 

[EraseRewind]

I can relate to flipping between two states of mind. I don't seem to have any particular trigger either. I know it's not possible but I'd like my shit side to ctb and leave me with the better half of my mind.

 

[GravityUtilizer]

I don't seem to have any particular trigger either.

Same for me. My support worker's like, 'Can't you work out what makes the bad days bad?' I'm like, 'Nope.'

 

[Georgii]

A never ending game :Will I break down over some random sht(or even literally nothing) or will I be able to go thru the day quietly with maybe a glimmer of hope ?

 

[draw a circle]

Same. Some days I'm like, maybe I should start doing therapy, but the next minute I will be like, "alright, time to die!" Can't decide what I want more, but if the world ends tomorrow, I wouldn't be complaining, ya know?

 

[Life_and_Death]

I'm hopeful for getting better but some moments it's unbearable. I know what I'd prefer but I go through the same thing so what ever happens I guess lol