Venting Depression Pit

[nico_wren]

My room is disgusting. It upsets me even thinking about it. I dont mind really, but the fact that my family knows and if anyone else knew I'd be embarassed tells me that it's BAD. If I want to ctb, I need to clean it, it's one of the things on my to do list, but I just don't know if I even have the motivation to do it. The motivation to die just isn't enough or something. Idk what this is so hard. I just don't want to do this anymore, but the thought of leaving that behind is even more upsetting.

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be really tiring feeling trapped in that situation, I understand feeling so tired of everything, to me existing here truly is so dreadful but anyway best wishes.

 

[MrDarkness]

I'm in the same boat, I need to clean my room before I ctb also or at least try, I have carpet beetles, and they are a bitch to get rid of, Ive vacuumed they come back etc. I'll try to clean my room the best I can before I ctb