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derpyderpins

derpyderpins

:( precisely as ugly as Sidney Sweeney :(
Sep 19, 2023
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The more affected I am, the more my brain reacts slowly. I make mental mistakes. I get sloppy. I forget things and can't balance as many ideas at once.

Really not good when my livelihood relies upon people valuing my brain and what it produces.
 
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KillingPain267

KillingPain267

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Apr 15, 2024
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This is worse when you also have anxiety. I have litle energy to keep schedules and tasks, but then anxiety kicks in making me scared that I forgot something. Literal mental torture.
 
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derpyderpins

derpyderpins

:( precisely as ugly as Sidney Sweeney :(
Sep 19, 2023
2,228
This is worse when you also have anxiety. I have litle energy to keep schedules and tasks, but then anxiety kicks in making me scared that I forgot something. Literal mental torture.
cyclic. Brain is dumb so I don't get as much done so I feel anxiety about not getting stuff done so I get depressed which makes my brain dumb and then I don't get as much done and so I feel anxious and so . . . . . . . . . .
 
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Autumn_Stars

Autumn_Stars

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Jun 9, 2024
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I have more lesions on my brain than they can count. I do things like put the AC on with the windows open. I worry I am going to burn the house down. My delivery of the ratchet was delayed due to a "problem," I just want to be free of this shitty existence.
 
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identity0

identity0

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Sep 25, 2024
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I have more lesions on my brain than they can count. I do things like put the AC on with the windows open. I worry I am going to burn the house down.
Yeah i dont even trust myself to cook when im having a bad day, it's actually dangerous since i drop things, cut myself chopping vegetables or could turn on the wrong setting on the stove or something
 
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jisi

jisi

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Oct 6, 2024
37
i understand this feeling completely. it's way worse when you have an eating disorder alongside it; you can literally feel your mental capacities declining so rapidly until it's almost as if you're bordering braindead. i'm happy to say that i'm not in that boat anymore. i still feel myself becoming stupider overtime though lol
 
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hop33xit

hop33xit

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Sep 25, 2024
42
how i understand you all, it feels like iq level is at 50 and energy is 3-6% already in the morning + severe anxiety as a gift.....
 
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opheliaoveragain

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Jun 2, 2024
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cyclic. Brain is dumb so I don't get as much done so I feel anxiety about not getting stuff done so I get depressed which makes my brain dumb and then I don't get as much done and so I feel anxious and so . . . . . . . . . .
biggest relate friend. take it one moment at a time. here for you.
 
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