I get it. For me though, I'd rather be with someone who has dealt with it, understands it, but is doing better.. or at least, just doesn't drag me even further down with them. Especially if we lived together. I can barely manage my depression, let alone someone else. I love trying to help my friends and people who are struggling like us. That doesn't bother me at all. I want to be there for them, but actually dating them would just weigh on me too much. It would just be more pain, and unfortunately, I can't handle anymore. I'd take a Robin Williams type of depressed.. miserable, but kind and still wants to make people laugh. That's what I need. I don't really like to wallow in my misery. It happens, but I try not to, especially when I'm around other people. I mean, a really good cry around a friend every now and then is great, but I want to enjoy the company. I'm desperate to feel good.