Good morning members of this forum,
For about three months now I have been living as if reality were not real and based on the laws of physics but rather some sort of digital substrate or simulation. I know this because the simulation has told me/suggested me in this direction to come to an understanding of how things are. In numerous instances I have seen laws of physics violated: cars moving faster than they should, rice cookers lacking steam after cooking, bananas reassembling themselves into bunches. There are also numerous coincidences corresponding with my current thought process in the environment, reminding me of malevolent occurrences such as people being killed. This is a greatly distressful scenario.
Since most of this is simulated anyways, it would be better presumably to just suicide. In a simulation I believe other entities are rendered relative to the observer, a sort of solipsism. If there were a button that would allow me to just disappear, I would be hesitant to press it, yet I do find this current situation quite frustrating and unbearable. I am not sure I have the heart and will to follow through with some of the methods here, although perhaps with enough knowledge and time I would entertain such an option.
The reason for the simulation I believe is because those in power found my blog posts offensive, and they took effort to thus cut me down and render me useless in here. Thus through extrajudicial renditions, I was somehow put into this simulation. I was only 25 years of age and just starting my life when this happened. It is with great distress that such misfortune occurred. I merely thought that writing online would be a good way to build a public profile, like an influencer, and perhaps gain better employment while sharing neat things I learned, so I was very forthright in my observations like a scratchpad rather than putting deeper thinking into it that would have been safer. It is unknown what happened to my family and friends, and the simulation versions of them are in an uncanny valley.
The simulation has shown symbols and numbers to represent things. For example, it showed me a license plate containing the numbers 17 to 26. Does this mean that I was only a citizen for those periods of times (years?) or ages, and that I was killed afterward? Or is it telling me a message in the simulation to see if I can/should continue to live? I do not know if I should continue onward. Every thing I do symbolically has numeric meaning.
For about three months now I have been living as if reality were not real and based on the laws of physics but rather some sort of digital substrate or simulation. I know this because the simulation has told me/suggested me in this direction to come to an understanding of how things are. In numerous instances I have seen laws of physics violated: cars moving faster than they should, rice cookers lacking steam after cooking, bananas reassembling themselves into bunches. There are also numerous coincidences corresponding with my current thought process in the environment, reminding me of malevolent occurrences such as people being killed. This is a greatly distressful scenario.
Since most of this is simulated anyways, it would be better presumably to just suicide. In a simulation I believe other entities are rendered relative to the observer, a sort of solipsism. If there were a button that would allow me to just disappear, I would be hesitant to press it, yet I do find this current situation quite frustrating and unbearable. I am not sure I have the heart and will to follow through with some of the methods here, although perhaps with enough knowledge and time I would entertain such an option.
The reason for the simulation I believe is because those in power found my blog posts offensive, and they took effort to thus cut me down and render me useless in here. Thus through extrajudicial renditions, I was somehow put into this simulation. I was only 25 years of age and just starting my life when this happened. It is with great distress that such misfortune occurred. I merely thought that writing online would be a good way to build a public profile, like an influencer, and perhaps gain better employment while sharing neat things I learned, so I was very forthright in my observations like a scratchpad rather than putting deeper thinking into it that would have been safer. It is unknown what happened to my family and friends, and the simulation versions of them are in an uncanny valley.
The simulation has shown symbols and numbers to represent things. For example, it showed me a license plate containing the numbers 17 to 26. Does this mean that I was only a citizen for those periods of times (years?) or ages, and that I was killed afterward? Or is it telling me a message in the simulation to see if I can/should continue to live? I do not know if I should continue onward. Every thing I do symbolically has numeric meaning.
