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hippiedeath

hippiedeath

Dead on the inside
Jul 12, 2025
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Parasitic parent stole my fucking soul now wants love. Narcissists should be shot on sight. Nothing is more damaging to an innocent human being.
 
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badatparties

badatparties

Elementalist
Mar 16, 2025
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Shit man i'm sorry, bad parents are the cause of a lot of issues on this planet. Do you want to talk about what your parents were like?
 
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hippiedeath

hippiedeath

Dead on the inside
Jul 12, 2025
249
Shit man i'm sorry, bad parents are the cause of a lot of issues on this planet. Do you want to talk about what your parents were like?
Manipulative, selfish, and entitled. Whatever you say they use it against you. Not safe at all.
 
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SadGirl

SadGirl

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Mar 24, 2019
451
I know how it is. My parents weren't that bad, but they always fought with me because I couldn't find job or financial stability. My father died 11 months ago today. I only have my mother, and I'm an only child. My mother has made me have several meltdowns/outbursts, and I've self-harmed in front of her. Just try not to worry too much. I know it's hard, but try to ignore it.
 
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hippiedeath

Dead on the inside
Jul 12, 2025
249
I know how it is. My parents weren't that bad, but they always fought with me because I couldn't find job or financial stability. My father died 11 months ago today. I only have my mother, and I'm an only child. My mother has made me have several meltdowns/outbursts, and I've self-harmed in front of her. Just try not to worry too much. I know it's hard, but try to ignore it.
Yes, only thing I can do is avoid them. It's a battle zone. My dad is going to die soon, he's not well. I have meltdowns, like at dinner tonight. Everything they say has a secret meaning that benefits only their ego. Wolf in sheep's clothing. Sorry you also understand, wish you didn't.
 
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badatparties

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Mar 16, 2025
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Manipulative, selfish, and entitled
I don't hold a grudge against mine anymore as they are nice enough. I still resent their behavior and resent them for bringing me into this world. They were just products of their time.

But we get along for the most part and they love me and all. I know others are not so lucky.
 
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hippiedeath

Dead on the inside
Jul 12, 2025
249
I just want to scream
I don't hold a grudge against mine anymore as they are nice enough. I still resent their behavior and resent them for bringing me into this world. They were just products of their time.

But we get along for the most part and they love me and all. I know others are not so lucky.
Mine say they love me, but really just take hostages.
 
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SadGirl

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Mar 24, 2019
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Yes, only thing I can do is avoid them. It's a battle zone. My dad is going to die soon, he's not well. I have meltdowns, like at dinner tonight. Everything they say has a secret meaning that benefits only their ego. Wolf in sheep's clothing. Sorry you also understand, wish you didn't.
My mother is very narcissistic and greedy, exceeding the limits of love, consideration, and empathy for her own (and only) daughter. I love my mother and would never abandon her. But these are daily and suffocating arguments, it's horrible. I'm sorry you're going through this, but focus on your life, don't give up.
 
hippiedeath

hippiedeath

Dead on the inside
Jul 12, 2025
249
My mother is very narcissistic and greedy, exceeding the limits of love, consideration, and empathy for her own (and only) daughter. I love my mother and would never abandon her. But these are daily and suffocating arguments, it's horrible. I'm sorry you're going through this, but focus on your life, don't give up.
Yes exactly what I'm facing. I need to be strong. Hope you are well.

Just common thugs
 
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SadGirl

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Mar 24, 2019
451
Yes exactly what I'm facing. I need to be strong. Hope you are well.
I'm trying. My girlfriend also fights with me, demanding money from me. But she doesn't give me the attention, affection, or kindness she used to. Now it's just arguments, fights, and stress, wearing down our relationship. I've tried a thousand times to talk to her, but nothing changes. She always goes out with her friends at night, and it's like I don't exist. I tell her I'm depressed, but she doesn't even pay attention. I don't know what to do, since I'm so emotionally dependent on her.
 
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hippiedeath

Dead on the inside
Jul 12, 2025
249
I'm trying. My girlfriend also fights with me, demanding money from me. But she doesn't give me the attention, affection, or kindness she used to. Now it's just arguments, fights, and stress, wearing down our relationship. I've tried a thousand times to talk to her, but nothing changes. She always goes out with her friends at night, and it's like I don't exist. I tell her I'm depressed, but she doesn't even pay attention. I don't know what to do, since I'm so emotionally dependent on her.
I know the feeling. I'm emotionally dependent on my abusers too. That's why I'm suicidal. I would guess being more self sufficient is the answer. The narcissistic person likes you beneath them. They get pleasure out of it. I pray for her death, I really do.
 
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SadGirl

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Mar 24, 2019
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I know the feeling. I'm emotionally dependent on my abusers too. That's why I'm suicidal. I would guess being more self sufficient is the answer. The narcissistic person likes you beneath them. They get pleasure out of it. I pray for her death, I really do.
This is heavy. But I can imagine your pain just thinking about it. Focus on yourself and your things. If you can, move out of your parents' house. And seek happiness and well-being; I know you'll find it. Suicide frequently haunts my thoughts. I've tried CTB before. But don't listen to that voice. Move on.
 
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hippiedeath

Dead on the inside
Jul 12, 2025
249
I've come to believe my father is an alien. He is very weird, opinionated and definitely out of this world. He judges me harshly, and has contempt for humanity. He sneers all the time. I'm really not long for this world. It's so depressing. I have no one.
 
plzoffme

plzoffme

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Jun 30, 2025
102
I know how you feel. I was raised by my father because my mother had a drug problem. She never paid child support and today acts like she has always been there for me.
 
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