Ammonite5
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- Jul 20, 2025
- 18
How to start the beginning of end? With a question I suppose, but then what question? Why do I want to die? How will I go? Why write about it rather then just doing it and being over? Well to answer the last question, I'm not completely sure my self. Partly as a record, some proof I was able to do at this at least this right, once its over. And partly to journal the path, the things I learn, how I got here and how Ill get to the end. Maybe it will help someone else, maybe it will just help me. I don't know much, and will have questions I'm sure. I've never died before, and it seems the kind of thing to get right the first time. Also I think writing this and posting it will give me a certain sense of accountability, I think that might be the largest reason really. I've always believed that writing down your goals help you achieve them, and I need to do this. Then again I am here on this site writing a 31 day long suicide note so clearly wiring down goals cant have helped that much. My plan is simple, read all the posts on this site, make a choice on how I want to go, get the necessary supplies, rent a room, and die. Why do I need to die? I think that's an unfair question, no one should need a why behind there choices. A better question would be why would I want to live? A lack of wanting to live is more then enough reason to die I believe. I believe that more then anything else these days. I guess it would be a common courtesy to introduce my self at this point. Just call me Ammonite. I'm a 26 woman living in a shitty town in the middle of the good old USA. Both parents are alive, but they wont miss me much, dropped out of collage at 20, worked some shit jobs till 24, been a NEET the last 2 years after getting cheated on, and now I'm using the last little bit of my will power to write this and die. Wish me luck.
