mizumono
Member
- Aug 9, 2023
- 26
My country is experiencing unprecedented high temperatures that have been persisting since August, and today I read that it most likely will last until June, with even higher temperatures than the ones we've had that had already been killing people.
I have a bunch of problems, but how can I even expect or try to work on them if all i got ahead of me is doom? I need to ctb as soon as possible, i have no desire to live in these conditions, but i have two cats that at least need to survive the next few years… i can't bear the thought of seeing them die but i also can't bear the thought of ctb and leaving them at odds in the same shitty conditions i'm trying to be freed from. A part of me just wants to lay down with them and all of us go at once, but it'd be so cruel to choose this for them… but i never wanted to ctb more than now.
I have a bunch of problems, but how can I even expect or try to work on them if all i got ahead of me is doom? I need to ctb as soon as possible, i have no desire to live in these conditions, but i have two cats that at least need to survive the next few years… i can't bear the thought of seeing them die but i also can't bear the thought of ctb and leaving them at odds in the same shitty conditions i'm trying to be freed from. A part of me just wants to lay down with them and all of us go at once, but it'd be so cruel to choose this for them… but i never wanted to ctb more than now.