Discussion DAE feel kinda... grossed out when thinking about the future?

[Livingvsdying25]

Thinking of the future makes me feel a lot of different things.

Not sure if its what I am aiming for anymore.

It kinda grosses me out to think of again... not 100% sure why but I have an idea. A lot of obstacles & reality of dealing with intense emotional & physical pain. I'm not really looking forward to the idea of living long rn


Anyone else? / what do y'all think about when u think of the future?

 

[soft-flower345]

I feel disgusted when I think about the future. Im very pessimistic, and the more I seek to understand where my life will be if I choose to keep living makes my stomach churn with despair.

 

[Aisley]

The future is one of those things I don't let myself think about. Failing in too many aspects right now.

 

[Sweet Tart]

Tbh, thinking about the future was shitty even when I was doing well and not planning to ctb. Having no financial security or partner and an expensive chronic illness that gets worse with age...

I used to do advocacy for older people in healthcare. It truly left me wanting to die before old age, regardless of depression & suicidal thoughts.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yes- absolutely- I get that feeling you get when you're on a rollercoaster drop and your stomach lurches. Like- utter dread and fear as to how I'd negotiate a full, natural long-ish life. Not enough money to retire. No family, no friends. Worsening health maybe. Difficulty in finding work. Yeah- it just looks bleak really. Suicide looks far more appealing- if only I didn't have to physically do it to myself... Not that being murdered sounds appealing either.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, I find it so dreadful to think of what potentially lies ahead as long as I'm trapped here.

To me existing is something that is both tiring and repulsive in general, as there is unlimited potential to suffer in this world filled with endless harm, and as humans we are just slowly decaying from age destined for nothing but to be tortured by very old age. I could never wish to exist here and the only future I wish for is one where I'm finally free from everything, I think it's such a terrible punishment having the ability to exist here.

 

[suicidalloser]

What is a "y'all"?

 

[Aisley]

What is a "y'all"?

You all