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tranquilityseeker
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- Aug 5, 2022
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Uhm, so I'm in a fix.
I was almost nearing my plan to ctb. After reading up a lot of material of the web I got to know that cyanide solution in water tastes absolutely horrendous, causes chemical burns in mouth & in many hospitalisation report I read that people have actually vomitted it because of its horrid taste & burning sensation. I can't risk sabotaging of my plan at all. I don't mind pain & burning but I obviously don't have control over my reflex actions after a point & if i vomit I'm totally fucked.
I'm kind of confused now for quite some time. I wanted to use a higher concentration of 8 or 10g of cyanide in 100 ml water preferably compared to 2 or 3g. I've seen reports (I can share if you'll want) of people surviving cyanide ingestion till 2.5g to 3g. Higher concentration means more lethality but certainly higher chemical burns with much horrid taste.
Damn it I'm in a conflict now over what to do. Is there way to desensitise the mouth somehow, would it affect swallowing?
I just want a reliable end. I don't want to end up a vegetable, I'm already in poor health for many years now.
I was almost nearing my plan to ctb. After reading up a lot of material of the web I got to know that cyanide solution in water tastes absolutely horrendous, causes chemical burns in mouth & in many hospitalisation report I read that people have actually vomitted it because of its horrid taste & burning sensation. I can't risk sabotaging of my plan at all. I don't mind pain & burning but I obviously don't have control over my reflex actions after a point & if i vomit I'm totally fucked.
I'm kind of confused now for quite some time. I wanted to use a higher concentration of 8 or 10g of cyanide in 100 ml water preferably compared to 2 or 3g. I've seen reports (I can share if you'll want) of people surviving cyanide ingestion till 2.5g to 3g. Higher concentration means more lethality but certainly higher chemical burns with much horrid taste.
Damn it I'm in a conflict now over what to do. Is there way to desensitise the mouth somehow, would it affect swallowing?
I just want a reliable end. I don't want to end up a vegetable, I'm already in poor health for many years now.