Venting Cutting seems pretty imminent

[isthisit?]

Nothing that bad even happened. But something just bad enough happened that it tipped the scale and made me realise that maybe the good really doesnt outweigh the bad.
Almost took a piece of a broken beer bottle just in case so I could cut later but realised that wouldnt be possible with people around.
Hate that I cant even talking about it with a close friend since there is always someone with us.
Life seems doomed, let the spiral begin ig

 

[Carrot]

What would cutting fulfill? What is the goal? Is there any other way, solution?

Draw attention? Couldn't you talk honestly with somebody about things instead?

I'd recommend any coping mechanics, productive or not, creating something, escapism, movies, games, anything instead scaring your body.

Saying this as somebody who used to cut himself.

 

[Cauliflour]

People think that cutting is a one and done kinda thing but no, it will stay with you for the rest of your life. Anytime since then, if you have some issues, your brain will start thinking about cutting again. You are a changed person when you intentionally cut yourself, please spare yourself the struggle and just pick up alcoholism or something more socially acceptable.