- Oct 6, 2020
On Monday the 7th of December, my friend and I will hang ourselves together. I met him on Reddit the night of my first attempt (a stupid overdose) and we've been friends since. We are both cripplingly mentally ill and suicidal. I have had an extremely stressful day today, after receiving a letter stating that border control has seized 2 tabs of LSD addressed to me (which I bought through the deep web). I was so close to just offing myself this morning because of the extreme paranoia I now feel worrying that the police will knock on my door any moment. My friend reassures me that they will simply dispose of the tabs and wont chase me down after ordering for personal use. Yet I am beyond stressed. As I write this I am sitting by my window, always looking out if I hear a car come. Anyways, he has convinced me to hold on for a few more days, then I will travel to his city. We will (ironically) take LSD and have a fun final day together before hanging. I am glad I will not be alone. I am glad to have him as a friend in my last few weeks here.