Ctb very soon (I hope) ✿

[Kikoo]

Got SN, got benzos, and got paracetamol. That's what I'll have to work with this time.
I'll most likely vomit, so I'm gonna have to depend on whatever will stay in my body after.
I'm going to prepare 4 glasses, 15g of SN each. I weight 41 kg/90 lbs, hoping it will somehow benefit me.
I'll do it either tomorrow or Monday. I'll be home alone since afternoon till next day morning, so like 16-20h.
Will schedule a text message to the emergency saying I commited, that will be sent in the morning.
Really praying I won't decide to call for help, ratting myself out wouldn't be the best thing to do in my situation.
I don't wanna die. But I don't have a choice, or any more time. I hate how dirty my life did me.
But well, shit happens, I guess. Some get lucky, some don't.
Just want to add that I'm insanely grateful for finding this site. I don't know what I would do without it. You guys are the best
Pls send strength

 

[TheMetalHead]

If you got benzos you may be fine taking a few of em before, in my case they helped a lot with attempting, overcoming SI.
I hope you'll succeed in reaching peace. May you finally rest.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find freedom from your suffering, best wishes.

 

[Captive_Mind515]

Best of luck, hope you get a peaceful journey!

 

[Slark]

I am happy to have met you and to have had the opportunity to talk to you. I hope whatever your decision is, it ends with you happy.

 

[アホペンギン]

I hope you're able to overcome SI this time, I'm sending you strength and I'm sending you my best regards. It'll be sad seeing you go, I enjoyed talking to you on the discord server and having you around in general, you're a good person. You really didn't deserve all this to happen to you.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

The world is so cruel and life is so cruel to you. It makes me so sad because you are a good person and you don't deserve this. However I understand your situation and I would consider the same decision. I'll miss chatting with you on discord, the community will miss you. I hope you find the strength you need. I hope you will find peace and freedom!

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

Wish you freedom from your suffering

 

[AnonGermany]

Thank you again so much for your help. You have no idea how much you helped me since that day.

Even though i really don't like reading things like:

I don't wanna die. But I don't have a choice, or any more time

But who am i to judge situations of others, so i wish you all the strength you need for the next step that you will take.

 

[mekurin]

You're incredibly strong to have made it this far. I'll miss you dearly. I enjoyed talking to you and I of course will be sad to see you go. I'll make sure no one forgets you or anyone else who passed away in our little group. I hope for safe travels <3

 

[Huggs]

We chatted very briefly but you seem like a very lovely person. I wish you all the best.

 

[chop]

The world didn't deserve someone as great as you, I'm so sorry from the pain you were brought upon, I know you'll be somewhere better.

Best of wishes.

 

[Aloneisbestforme]

I wish you the best.

I may not know you but you seem like a great person and I hope you can find your true peace soon from this cruel world.
You deserve peace like everyone else!

 

[F&Inside]

You will be missed here.
Farewell Kikoo.

 

[pyroxenic]

im wishing you the best , overcoming SI can be tough. And i hope youll have enough courage and strenght to proceed sucessfully and safely. From the message it sounds youre really in pain from everything. Im sorry to see you go, but i hope you find your peace. Bless you.

 

[nofunclub]

I'm sorry life has brought you to this point. I hope you find peace.

 

[Takamagahara]

Please find an end to your pain wherever that may be, whether you go ahead of us or find yourself back here.

 

[Otto Mann]

Wishing you an excellent voyage!

 

[Kikoo]

Execution in a few hours
Wish me good luck

 

[MrDarkness]

I'll never forget you, I'll make sure to carry on your spirit in the little time I have left. Best wishes and good luck

 

[AnonGermany]

Sending energy for your next step.. good luck and thank you for what you did for me

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I wish you all the best. I hope you have the strength to finally set yourself free from all suffering in this world. I will miss you but I also know you will be free. May you find peace. Safe travels and good luck!

 

[アホペンギン]

Good luck later today, Kiko. I wish you the best and I hope you leave peacefully and painlessly, you deserve it. Safe travels.

Execution in a few hours
Wish me good luck

I'll never forget you and the nice times we had on the discord server, those were probably the only times I was happy. Good luck :)

 

[Kikoo]

Half an hour until painkillers

 

[TheMetalHead]

May you finally rest without worrying

 

[Kikoo]

Took paracetamol... my head hurts already

 

[アホペンギン]

Took paracetamol... my head hurts already

Is your head feeling better now? If not, I hope the symptoms will recede, soon.

 

[Huggs]

Hello Kikoo, I hope the best for you and that everything is as peaceful as possible. We're all thinking of you.

 

[Kikoo]

Is your head feeling better now? If not, I hope the symptoms will recede, soon.

Still hurts

 

[アホペンギン]

Still hurts

It might be because of stress…I'm sorry, I hope it'll at least feel better before you take the SN. When will you be taking the SN?