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wyo777

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May 18, 2024
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But she said she would be with you on a call?? You can't control what she does when you're on a call with her.
It does not work like that. He knows what he is doing.
 
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DefinitelyReady

DefinitelyReady

Desperate to go--
Mar 14, 2024
556
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It does not work like that. He knows what he is doing.
He acted like he didn't want to take the risk when some of us (me) would've risked it. I was reassured because MiMi herself said she would be on a call...
 
itsover246

itsover246

Life destroyed by SSRIs
May 11, 2024
34
Rest in peace mi mi :(
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
9,473
Rest in peace MiMi. :heart:🕯️
 
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ferrie

she/they
May 19, 2024
300
I hope you were able to find peace and are resting easy ❤️
 
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22yrsandnowshesgone

Member
Jun 6, 2024
16
i am sorry for the pain that brought you to this. but i do wish you a good trip. I do not know you , yet i understand your pain. go in peace friend

May legions of winged angels, carry you unto your heaven .While choirs of cherubim exalt your praises. And may the light always shine upon your face.
i am going to listen to one of your songs, i just found this site , as such if u r still here , i want ytou to know your the first ive seen on here , ctb. I will remeber u . ur posts . thank u
 
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feelinggloomy

Student
May 29, 2024
105
I hope they found peace
 
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dopaminedeath

Student
Nov 12, 2022
131
Safe travels, hope you are at peace
 
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Ruma

Ruma

Experienced
Dec 26, 2021
250
Goodbye and good luck mimi. Wishing you a swift and peaceful passing.
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
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Update:

This is how it hypothetically went.

She was nervous but quite determined and collected.

Said she was very grateful to this site and everyone in it. She was seeing the online number on the page and was quite surprised and happy and grateful to not have done this alone.

Said stomach was growling since she fasted for long.

Prepared 2 cups....... "just taking time to make sure it fully dissolves, but there are no more granulars."

"I didn't expect 25g to look like that. Solution is cloudier than i expected."

Took antacids (didn't specify what kind)

After 15 minutes took 1st cup.... she was coughing bit and burped a little but said she was fine.

"Lying on my right side now, higher with a pillow under my head"
"it's salty, kinda like putting too much salt on your french fries.

"No chemical taste just salty. My throat feels fine. The salt detox has helped me prepare of what it will be like."

Took mint for the taste.

After 5 min
"no effect yet, a bit nauseous but managable"
"To each their own but i never believe AEs are necessarily"
"No pain or burning sensation"
"looking at people's kind replies"

7 min
"heart beat is rising a bit but im ok"


10 min,
"nausea got stronger, breathing deep and trying to hold it in"

12min
"i can't hold it in any longer, it's definitely coming out!"

Vomited

"I will take 2nd cup once the vomiting stops"
"Heart is beating fast now"
"A little dizzy"

14 min
"I took only one sip of the 2nd cup, i can't drink any more"

15 min
"Lying on my right side now"
"Heart beating faster"
"Dizziness increased now"

16 min
Non responsive

17-18 min
Inaudible very low voices, faded after a couple of mins.

20-22 min
consistent audible fastish exhale sound

28 min
Breath sound still audible but got slower

33 min
Breath sound got lower and slower

36-38 min
Very low and sparse

39min
Last audible Breath.

After that no audible sound for the next 30mins.

Disclaimer: this is all there is to it and all of this is just hypothetically speaking. Take it as you will. Please don't ask me further questions, especially ones i have no way of knowing and answering.
 
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LostSoul1965

Experienced
Apr 15, 2024
251
Do you think she suffered in any way? (Hypothetically)
That would be nice to know. (hypothetically) If in fact she is gone i hope it was a smooth and painless transition for her. She was a beautiful soul. ❤️ And a joy to have around here.
 
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Coconut blue

Coconut blue

Student
May 13, 2024
144
I hope you're in a better place
you deserve peace and happiness ❤️
 
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Roadrunner

Roadrunner

Member
Mar 18, 2024
50
RIP MiMi , your suffering has ended
 
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absolutelyyou

absolutelyyou

peaceful
Jul 26, 2023
132
I have a candle going for you, Mimi. I hope you are at rest, your pain is gone, and you've found the peace you've deserved your whole life. This place is a little darker without your light but I think there are a good few of us here that can safely say the light you shined was deeply impactful to those that experienced it. May you rest in a peace as strong as the light you shared.
 
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Unknown21

Unknown21

?/?/2024
Apr 25, 2023
841
Goodbye MI MI. RIP.
 
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Onelegman

Onelegman

I use a translator
May 24, 2024
406
Mi Mi and most of us here could improve the world in so many ways... but no, the world forces us to leave.
 
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Tears in Rain

Tears in Rain

..............
Dec 12, 2023
857
R.I.P. Mimi.
 
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lost_ange2211

lost_ange2211

An angel who wants to go home..
May 29, 2024
90
Good luck with your plan. May you find your peace!
 
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Beyond_Repair

Beyond_Repair

Disheartened Ghost
Oct 27, 2023
238
RIP Mimi, hope it was swift and as painless as possible
 
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J&L383

Specialist
Jul 18, 2023
356
I am shaking

Some tears

But I'm ready and praying for a peaceful, painless and quick journey.

Yes I did say praying.

I suppose it's by default but it's how I was raised and just like many relationships...maybe it wasn't the best.

But it was mine and I own it.

I had many moments of gratitude.
I had many moments of anger.

I'm human.

As I lit my candles one last time.

I played 2 songs
Kingdom by Maverick City Music
And Gold by Prince
Another is Get what you give or Flowes by New Radicals.

If you'd like to celebrate me and wish me a peaceful journey...play one of those and it's just like I'm there.


My last words in my journal this morning

I will go to heaven
I belong in heaven
I deserve heaven
I Am Heaven

I'm gonna dance and sing again.
I will have joy and peace.
I'll be forgiven and I will forgive.
I'll be loved and be loving.
It's ok now Mama.
Peace and love. ♥️🤗🕊️😇
 
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Esokabat

Experienced
Apr 22, 2024
284
Sounded like a rough journey but I am sure she arrived safe and sound.

Do I understand correctly that she didn't take any AE? And what is a "salt detox"? Anyone lnows?
 
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absolutelyyou

peaceful
Jul 26, 2023
132
Sounded like a rough journey but I am sure she arrived safe and sound.

Do I understand correctly that she didn't take any AE? And what is a "salt detox"? Anyone lnows?
She spoke about in in an earlier thread of hers. It's a method of basically triggering your body to purge whatever is in your digestive tract. You drink a lot of salt water very fast, likely done to clean her body out as much as possible before the inevitability of your bowels and bladders expelling when you die.
 
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Raindancer

Raindancer

Specialist
Nov 4, 2023
310
May your journey have been safe and peaceful and I pray you are in the arms of God.
 
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sugarh1gh

sugarh1gh

Death is new departure and beggining of a journey.
May 27, 2024
321
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
758
Update:

This is how it hypothetically went.

She was nervous but quite determined and collected.

Said she was very grateful to this site and everyone in it. She was seeing the online number on the page and was quite surprised and happy and grateful to not have done this alone.

Said stomach was growling since she fasted for long.

Prepared 2 cups....... "just taking time to make sure it fully dissolves, but there are no more granulars."

"I didn't expect 25g to look like that. Solution is cloudier than i expected."

Took antacids (didn't specify what kind)

After 15 minutes took 1st cup.... she was coughing bit and burped a little but said she was fine.

"Lying on my right side now, higher with a pillow under my head"
"it's salty, kinda like putting too much salt on your french fries.

"No chemical taste just salty. My throat feels fine. The salt detox has helped me prepare of what it will be like."

Took mint for the taste.

After 5 min
"no effect yet, a bit nauseous but managable"
"To each their own but i never believe AEs are necessarily"
"No pain or burning sensation"
"looking at people's kind replies"

7 min
"heart beat is rising a bit but im ok"


10 min,
"nausea got stronger, breathing deep and trying to hold it in"

12min
"i can't hold it in any longer, it's definitely coming out!"

Vomited

"I will take 2nd cup once the vomiting stops"
"Heart is beating fast now"
"A little dizzy"

14 min
"I took only one sip of the 2nd cup, i can't drink any more"

15 min
"Lying on my right side now"
"Heart beating faster"
"Dizziness increased now"

16 min
Non responsive

17-18 min
Inaudible very low voices, faded after a couple of mins.

20-22 min
consistent audible fastish exhale sound

28 min
Breath sound still audible but got slower

33 min
Breath sound got lower and slower

36-38 min
Very low and sparse

39min
Last audible Breath.

After that no audible sound for the next 30mins.

Disclaimer: this is all there is to it and all of this is just hypothetically speaking. Take it as you will. Please don't ask me further questions, especially ones i have no way of knowing and answering.
You are a special person and I hope you're doing ok. 🫂
 
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Esokabat

Experienced
Apr 22, 2024
284
She spoke about in in an earlier thread of hers. It's a method of basically triggering your body to purge whatever is in your digestive tract. You drink a lot of salt water very fast, likely done to clean her body out as much as possible before the inevitability of your bowels and bladders expelling when you die.
I see, thank you. And I assume the vomiting was due to (at least partially) not using any AE? I assume she had no access to AEs where she lived.
 

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