My parents have done a lot for me as best as they could perhaps. Specially, they have paid for my education till undergrad and of course for my living costs, etc. as I live with them. So, if I Ctb, they won't be able to enjoy the benefits that I could give them like doing a good job (as they are old, they can't work well now), earning well, paying for their living, food, etc.
Also, there are moments when they / other family members did things that hurt or traumatized me. Now, when I am a bit weak / ill mentally, they sometimes say things they did for me, or remind me of painful memories and I get hurt.
Anyways, I tend to like to pay any dues. So, if I Ctb now / this year, it will be like my parents won't be able to enjoy anything from me. But, I realize it is impossible to pay all the parents' due. What can I do to reduce the guilty feeling / pain I may cause them and other closed ones with my CTB?
Also, there are moments when they / other family members did things that hurt or traumatized me. Now, when I am a bit weak / ill mentally, they sometimes say things they did for me, or remind me of painful memories and I get hurt.
Anyways, I tend to like to pay any dues. So, if I Ctb now / this year, it will be like my parents won't be able to enjoy anything from me. But, I realize it is impossible to pay all the parents' due. What can I do to reduce the guilty feeling / pain I may cause them and other closed ones with my CTB?
