CTB tonight

[The anhedonic one]

I chickened out. Had issues with situating the rope and SI kicked in enough to stop me from further trying. Sucked it up and texted my father everything and he was understanding and supportive. No psych ward or downplaying, he just came home, spoke with me, and we went out for strawberry pie and tea.

I think SaSu is worsening my depression, so I'm deleting my account. Going to try recovery with the help of my father. Hasn't helped before, but I want to stick it out for my parents. Thank you for the kind words, sorry it was wasted.

Everything that happened to you at school happened to me. It's brutal.
I'm glad that you are going to try recovery.
I wish you the very best of luck. And you are very lucky to have such good and understanding parents.

 

[SpiderLink]

I chickened out. Had issues with situating the rope and SI kicked in enough to stop me from further trying. Sucked it up and texted my father everything and he was understanding and supportive. No psych ward or downplaying, he just came home, spoke with me, and we went out for strawberry pie and tea.

I think SaSu is worsening my depression, so I'm deleting my account. Going to try recovery with the help of my father. Hasn't helped before, but I want to stick it out for my parents. Thank you for the kind words, sorry it was wasted.

I'm so glad your father could be there for u, I'm proud you r pushing for recovery! Take care and sending love and virtual hugs

 

[LoiteringClouds]

Well, the time has arrived. Tears fall but not for myself.

I took this name because I like to daydream. I pretend to exercise and jog around my neighborhood for hours each day immersed in my dream land. I listen to music people make fun of and live a life that I will never have. In this world my name is Aiden. Aiden is a father and an elementary school teacher and Aiden loves his job. He helps out with volunteer work and assists with the food drive. He also as friends who support him when his depression gets too intense. Aiden had an outlet for his emotions and knew that there were people who loved him that reached out when he needed it most. Aiden was happy and loved. But Aiden isn't real.

In reality, I'm a girl who lies on her profile about being a man because I want to "chase my dreams" if you will. I don't know who I was fooling with the pink and the female avatar. I am a girl who failed her classes and got bullied in elementary school. I'm a girl who has social anxiety and can't maintain friendships and only thinks for herself. I am a girl with no friends. The only thing my dreams got right was my depression. This is reality.

I walked around one last time. It was silent. The dreams that I love so dearly that kept me alive this long aren't there for me. I feel truly alone now and I know it is time. Rest in peace, Aiden. Thank you for being by my side all these years.

I have an imaginary friend named Aiden - what a coincidence!

I chickened out. Had issues with situating the rope and SI kicked in enough to stop me from further trying. Sucked it up and texted my father everything and he was understanding and supportive. No psych ward or downplaying, he just came home, spoke with me, and we went out for strawberry pie and tea.

I think SaSu is worsening my depression, so I'm deleting my account. Going to try recovery with the help of my father. Hasn't helped before, but I want to stick it out for my parents. Thank you for the kind words, sorry it was wasted.

Good luck! I wish you the best

 

[FuneralCry]

Goodbye. At least you aren't locked in a horrible psych ward.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

Was going to wait it out for another month, but my family decided they would bring me somewhere the week I was going to do it. Going to do it while I have the place to myself, partial hanging.

I don't plan to write any note, anything I say will just make my father grieve. Thanks for the support here while it lasted and those that made this possible. If you have what it takes to recover, then fight like hell. Otherwise, I hope you all find your peace.

Im sorry. What happend? Care to tell us your story that led to this?

Whatever comes next I hope its what you wanted...
What do you think happens after death?

I chickened out. Had issues with situating the rope and SI kicked in enough to stop me from further trying. Sucked it up and texted my father everything and he was understanding and supportive. No psych ward or downplaying, he just came home, spoke with me, and we went out for strawberry pie and tea.

I think SaSu is worsening my depression, so I'm deleting my account. Going to try recovery with the help of my father. Hasn't helped before, but I want to stick it out for my parents. Thank you for the kind words, sorry it was wasted.

Oh shit i didnt see this. A happy ending from a goodbye thread? This is a fucking rare one christ this is wholesome, dont lose the momentum! Keep going you can climb out I know you can

 

[▪︎⚠ ＫＯＨＩ ⚠▪︎]

I chickened out. Had issues with situating the rope and SI kicked in enough to stop me from further trying. Sucked it up and texted my father everything and he was understanding and supportive. No psych ward or downplaying, he just came home, spoke with me, and we went out for strawberry pie and tea.

I think SaSu is worsening my depression, so I'm deleting my account. Going to try recovery with the help of my father. Hasn't helped before, but I want to stick it out for my parents. Thank you for the kind words, sorry it was wasted.

Don't worry, do what you think is the best for you if you think it will make you feel better.

I'm glad your father was very supportive in this situation, wish you good luck :]

 

[WaffleWoman]

I chickened out. Had issues with situating the rope and SI kicked in enough to stop me from further trying. Sucked it up and texted my father everything and he was understanding and supportive. No psych ward or downplaying, he just came home, spoke with me, and we went out for strawberry pie and tea.

I think SaSu is worsening my depression, so I'm deleting my account. Going to try recovery with the help of my father. Hasn't helped before, but I want to stick it out for my parents. Thank you for the kind words, sorry it was wasted.

I hope your able to recover good luck

 

[cgrtt.brns]

I chickened out. Had issues with situating the rope and SI kicked in enough to stop me from further trying. Sucked it up and texted my father everything and he was understanding and supportive. No psych ward or downplaying, he just came home, spoke with me, and we went out for strawberry pie and tea.

I think SaSu is worsening my depression, so I'm deleting my account. Going to try recovery with the help of my father. Hasn't helped before, but I want to stick it out for my parents. Thank you for the kind words, sorry it was wasted.

so glad to hear youre giving recovery another chance. i really truly hope you find peace in life. and you have nothing to be sorry for, theres no such thing as a waste of kind words. i understand how sasu could make things worse for some, despite the immense amount of kindness there is also a lot of sadness within this forum. wishing you all the best for the future, you absolutely deserve it without a doubt in my mind. take care of yourself especially after what youve been through today. sending as many hugs as you need right now if thats ok with you <3

 

[just_so_done]

It's ok that you didn't go through with it, it means you're not ready and also you're human (we can't control SI and maybe sometimes it means its not our time). Now the tough part, fight like hell to get better and live the life you want to live, the life you deserve to live. I'm so happy to hear that your dad was supportive and his going to be by your side while you recover. You can do this! And thank you for sharing your story with us about Aiden. All the best

 

[feder]

I chickened out. Had issues with situating the rope and SI kicked in enough to stop me from further trying. Sucked it up and texted my father everything and he was understanding and supportive. No psych ward or downplaying, he just came home, spoke with me, and we went out for strawberry pie and tea.

I think SaSu is worsening my depression, so I'm deleting my account. Going to try recovery with the help of my father. Hasn't helped before, but I want to stick it out for my parents. Thank you for the kind words, sorry it was wasted.

I'm glad u didn't do it, you gave yourself another chance to recover and I'm so proud of you for trying again. I sincerely hope that your life will only get better from now on. Best of luck and much love

 

[SilentSadness]

Good luck and goodbye, I hope you find the peace you've missed.

 

[Riverz]

Well, the time has arrived. Tears fall but not for myself.

I took this name because I like to daydream. I pretend to exercise and jog around my neighborhood for hours each day immersed in my dream land. I listen to music people make fun of and live a life that I will never have. In this world my name is Aiden. Aiden is a father and an elementary school teacher and Aiden loves his job. He helps out with volunteer work and assists with the food drive. He also as friends who support him when his depression gets too intense. Aiden had an outlet for his emotions and knew that there were people who loved him that reached out when he needed it most. Aiden was happy and loved. But Aiden isn't real.

In reality, I'm a girl who lies on her profile about being a man because I want to "chase my dreams" if you will. I don't know who I was fooling with the pink and the female avatar. I am a girl who failed her classes and got bullied in elementary school. I'm a girl who has social anxiety and can't maintain friendships and only thinks for herself. I am a girl with no friends. The only thing my dreams got right was my depression. This is reality.

I walked around one last time. It was silent. The dreams that I love so dearly that kept me alive this long aren't there for me. I feel truly alone now and I know it is time. Rest in peace, Aiden. Thank you for being by my side all these years.

I have a similar story. I held on to my masculine side for so long as a way to protect myself against the world of fear and hatred. I want you to know that you are human and deserve to be loved for who and what you truly are. I once went by Anthony and I hated him so so so so much, I attributed him with all the negativity in my life. My real name has always been Rose and I'm still holding on to her forever because she deserves love and didn't deserve to be murdered by Anthony. I hope you're doing ok.

 

[BlankZeroNone]

Reading your update made me very emotional. Thank you, leftdreaming. You've changed me for the better.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I'm sorry you find yourself at this place in your life and no matter what you do, I hope you can get to the peace you deserve.

 

[Regen]

All the best for you!!! What a brave decision. I hope, you find very good help and not "only" strawberry pie

 

[Letgo]

All the best ❤. May you find peace. You and your parents are being thought of.

 

[Mortadelo]

Good luck !

 

[Rob1984]

I chickened out. Had issues with situating the rope and SI kicked in enough to stop me from further trying. Sucked it up and texted my father everything and he was understanding and supportive. No psych ward or downplaying, he just came home, spoke with me, and we went out for strawberry pie and tea.

I think SaSu is worsening my depression, so I'm deleting my account. Going to try recovery with the help of my father. Hasn't helped before, but I want to stick it out for my parents. Thank you for the kind words, sorry it was wasted.

For what it's worth, I think it's brave of you to try to recover. It is not an easy road to travel, and it will likely be very difficult/painful, but it is possible to get better. Also, it sounds like your father is a decent man who cares a lot about you. I know from experience that my own father would not have reacted the way yours did. Anyway, I hope things get better for you. Good luck

 

[DarkDg21]

Op made me teared up a bit.
Good to know She has some energy left to give it another try. I wish you well.