CTB Tonight...

[time2fly]

Am going to ctb tonight using the SN method. I have been hanging around here on sasu for a while now and have loved all of you. This community is the only reason I am still here. I'm not going to go to far in depth as to why im CTB but just know that my decision is true. My time has come and I am ready. I have around 11 hours until I mix my drinks and will be hanging around here until that time comes. Following the protocol and have already been fasting for 24 hours. Using OTC painkilleres and AEs. Much love to all of you and feel free to ask any questions if you have any. Will miss you all. :)

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm sorry life has brought you to this point. I hope you have a peaceful journey. Are you managing to pass the time quickly and distract yourself?

 

[GasMonkey]

See you on the Other Side.

 

[time2fly]

Update: I am also mixing laughing gas N2O with my SN. Will be huffing it before and after drinking to help with anxiety and also to increase nitric oxide levels in blood further dropping blood pressure. This should allow me to pass out far quicker than just relying on the gastric nitric oxide. I will try to document the effects but I doubt I will be awake for long after drinking SN.

 

[SwissSuicideLady]

Good luck. I hope to follow you soon

 

[time2fly]

I'm sorry life has brought you to this point. I hope you have a peaceful journey. Are you managing to pass the time quickly and distract yourself?

Yeah. Just ate final meal, some Italian sausages with onion and ketchup. Perfect.

 

[FuneralCry]

You are so fortunate to be leaving this awful world, I envy you. I wish you the best of luck.

 

[sincerelysad]

from the times i've talked to you i've known you to be kind, im so sorry life has hurt you and put you in the position you're in. you deserve to be at peace and to be comfortable with your decision. i hope you find it. 🕊

 

[Miss Anthropy]

All of the best to you on your journey!

 

[stermc]

May you have a peaceful journey! See you on the other side

 

[Fulminare]

I'm sad to see you go. Please take care. I'll join you soon

 

[purplehearted]

All the best. I hope you find peace

 

[hellispink]

Peace

 

[Per Ardua Ad Astra]

Per ardua ad astra

 

[dead lightbulb]

I'm glad you could find solace here before you go I hope your final moments are peaceful and free of any complications or strife

 

[time2fly]

Update: just measured out 50g in two cups. Going to add water in a few minutes and then wait around for about half and hour going over final thoughts.

 

[Archamais]

Update: just measured out 50g in two cups. Going to add water in a few minutes and then wait around for about half and hour going over final thoughts.

Wishing you all the best

 

[time2fly]

Shameful update: SI destroyed me and caused me to panic throw cup against wall and abort attempt. I will give life another shot at least for a few weeks. I realized that I don't want to die but I just hate living my current life. If there's even a shred of hope for me in the future then that is worth sticking around for. Feel a sense of shame and courageous euphoria at this moment.

 

[LookingOverTheEdge]

Shameful update: SI destroyed me and caused me to panic throw cup against wall and abort attempt. I will give life another shot at least for a few weeks. I realized that I don't want to die but I just hate living my current life. If there's even a shred of hope for me in the future then that is worth sticking around for. Feel a sense of shame and courageous euphoria at this moment.

You have absolutely nothing to feel embarrassed or ashamed about friend. Don't be too hard on yourself.

I really hope you can turn things around

 

[peacetime]

Shameful update: SI destroyed me and caused me to panic throw cup against wall and abort attempt. I will give life another shot at least for a few weeks. I realized that I don't want to die but I just hate living my current life. If there's even a shred of hope for me in the future then that is worth sticking around for. Feel a sense of shame and courageous euphoria at this moment.

Completely fine and if anything, this is good.

 

[Jadzia]

Shameful update: SI destroyed me and caused me to panic throw cup against wall and abort attempt. I will give life another shot at least for a few weeks. I realized that I don't want to die but I just hate living my current life. If there's even a shred of hope for me in the future then that is worth sticking around for. Feel a sense of shame and courageous euphoria at this moment.

Definitely nothing to be ashamed about. Sending hugs

 

[Seekingawayout]

Shameful update: SI destroyed me and caused me to panic throw cup against wall and abort attempt. I will give life another shot at least for a few weeks. I realized that I don't want to die but I just hate living my current life. If there's even a shred of hope for me in the future then that is worth sticking around for. Feel a sense of shame and courageous euphoria at this moment.

No shame at all! Only you know what's best for you.

 

[Destiny Calls Me]

Shameful update: SI destroyed me and caused me to panic throw cup against wall and abort attempt. I will give life another shot at least for a few weeks. I realized that I don't want to die but I just hate living my current life. If there's even a shred of hope for me in the future then that is worth sticking around for. Feel a sense of shame and courageous euphoria at this moment.

Nothing to be ashamed about at all. You took a step doing something many struggle to do. Its a normal and natural thing to have happen. In the meantime re-evaluate your life. If you think there might be hope in the future, there may be hope. Regardless what you decide I wish you the best of luck in finding peace.

 

[TraurigerClown]

Am going to ctb tonight using the SN method. I have been hanging around here on sasu for a while now and have loved all of you. This community is the only reason I am still here. I'm not going to go to far in depth as to why im CTB but just know that my decision is true. My time has come and I am ready. I have around 11 hours until I mix my drinks and will be hanging around here until that time comes. Following the protocol and have already been fasting for 24 hours. Using OTC painkilleres and AEs. Much love to all of you and feel free to ask any questions if you have any. Will miss you all. :)

Have a good Journey :)

 

[Forever Sleep]

Nothing to feel ashamed about. It has to feel right at the time. If there's any hope for life left- surely it's worth trying. Hope you get to rest and re-evaluate life in the coming weeks. Good luck.

 

[silence ends]

Hope you find peace. Will follow soon