ctb tomorrow night (super botched run)

[flufflepuff]

hi everyone! im planning to ctb by sn tomorrow night.
WARNING: this is super super botched! like do not follow what i did! at all! im the biggest clown! like if there was only ONE way to fuck up the sn method, ive done it. like this ish prob not gon work (or it will... just violently.)

my plans
Sunday

• Fast begins at 8pm

Monday

• 9:50pm -- Antacid (750mg each)
  • 4-5 @ 10m before
• 8:30pm -- ibuprofen (200mg each)
  • 3 @ 1h30m before
• ~10pm -- 25mg sn 50ml water (planning to have 3 extra cups just in case.)

you may have noticed, i have no antiemetic. basically im cooked, absolutely fried son. its such a hassle in the US i figured it wasnt worth the effort, and i pretty much have no way of getting it. so, ive prepared diy antiemetics:

• cold rag freeze 15m before
• breathe through nose
• sit upright
• fresh air
• focus on something else (nothing overstimulating)
• p6 point 3 fingers out from wrist, inbetween tendon (mark with pen)

if it doesnt work, ill drink more. in the past ive overdosed on zoloft, which had the same effects as this. so im not expecting it to be too bad compared to that time (it was pretty violent though)

my family, me, etc
ive already called a few family members and everything. i havent written any finished notes, and i dont want to finish the one ive begun either. i do have feelings about where i want to be put to rest though, and what happens to my assets. i have nothing left to say to my family, friends, etc. if they really want answers as to why i did it they should look to all the times i asked for help, my health, and everytime i begged for change that never came. if they cant figure out why from that, then they never deserved an answer from me.

shoutout to every thread i read on here to help me find peace, and that one person whos ctb thread i saw when i first came here, "i came, i saw, i conquered"

also, i have one question. instead of preparing 3 cups of it, can i just dump it into a water bottle and take smaller sips? omg bruh this is so cooked IM COOKED
any advice/comments is welcome cuz this is so botched

 

[Rihan]

I have no advice to give as I'm not super knowledgeable regarding SN, but I wish you all the best. I hope that your attempt is not too painful.

 

[flufflepuff]

I have no advice to give as I'm not super knowledgeable regarding SN, but I wish you all the best. I hope that your attempt is not too painful.

thank you i appreciate your words! i hope it wont be painful aswell

 

[sickofeverything]

Do you plan to post when you attempt? I'm planning to use sn when it arrives, I also have no antiemetics but thinking of using Benadryl since it says it has antiemetic properties.

 

[tooafraidtodiez]

Try to at least get OTC antiemetics i believe. Otherwise you'd vomit too much and the dose may not be right. Do not take small sip as there's a chance that it tastes horrible. In fact, prepare lolipop or something to remove the taste of SN from your mouth that may also help with vomiting. It's been noted that many have a hard time taking the second dose of SN due to body weakness or intense vomiting so better assume the first cup you take is your only cup but everyone is different. Do get benzos if you can it will help calm you down and sedate you, it should be above or just at the maximum dose recommended by AI so it'll help you pass out. Prepare SN beside you first so when you feel the peak take SN immediately.

 

[flufflepuff]

Do you plan to post when you attempt? I'm planning to use sn when it arrives, I also have no antiemetics but thinking of using Benadryl since it says it has antiemetic properties.

i might! but holy moly you are onto something with that Benadryl, i didnt even consider that. you definitely just helped me out

Try to at least get OTC antiemetics i believe. Otherwise you'd vomit too much and the dose may not be right. Do not take small sip as there's a chance that it tastes horrible. In fact, prepare lolipop or something to remove the taste of SN from your mouth that may also help with vomiting. It's been noted that many have a hard time taking the second dose of SN due to body weakness or intense vomiting so better assume the first cup you take is your only cup but everyone is different. Do get benzos if you can it will help calm you down and sedate you, it should be above or just at the heavy dose recommended by AI so it'll help you pass out. Prepare SN beside you first so when you feel the peak take SN immediately. Take antacid if you're feeling nausea before even taking the SN.

the OTC antiemetics i can access are for motion sickness, etc. which wouldnt work. it needs to block the brain's nausea signal which only prescription antiemetics do. i have no benzos, and i have no access to getting them unfortunately. however i do have zoloft, do you know if that would work or does it have a negative reaction with sn? i have some rainbow lolipops and strawberry candy to help me with the taste, but ive done other horrible tasting overdoses in the past so im pretty sure ill be able to handle it :3 thank you for the advice!

 

[sickofeverything]

Try to at least get OTC antiemetics i believe. Otherwise you'd vomit too much and the dose may not be right. Do not take small sip as there's a chance that it tastes horrible. In fact, prepare lolipop or something to remove the taste of SN from your mouth that may also help with vomiting. It's been noted that many have a hard time taking the second dose of SN due to body weakness or intense vomiting so better assume the first cup you take is your only cup but everyone is different. Do get benzos if you can it will help calm you down and sedate you, it should be above or just at the maximum dose recommended by AI so it'll help you pass out. Prepare SN beside you first so when you feel the peak take SN immediately.

If I only have access to healthy zinc elderberry lollipops would they be fine to use or would they possibly be worse since they can like "be healthy" and fight the sn?

 

[tooafraidtodiez]

If I only have access to healthy zinc elderberry lollipops would they be fine to use or would they possibly be worse since they can like "be healthy" and fight of sn?

. The lolipop is just to remove taste of the SN and help you relax a bit. Since some said SN tastes bad

 

[Matchaaa]

I hope you find the peace you are search for. good luck, I hope the process isn't too painful for you.

 

[sickofeverything]

i might! but holy moly you are onto something with that Benadryl, i didnt even consider that. you definitely just helped me out

the OTC antiemetics i can access are for motion sickness, etc. which wouldnt work. it needs to block the brain's nausea signal which only prescription antiemetics do. i have no benzos, and i have no access to getting them unfortunately. however i do have zoloft, do you know if that would work or does it have a negative reaction with sn? i have some rainbow lolipops and strawberry candy to help me with the taste, but ive done other horrible tasting overdoses in the past so im pretty sure ill be able to handle it :3 thank you for the advice!

If you don't want to post publicly when you do but would be fine chatting I would appreciate it, I totally understand though if you don't feel comfortable sharing.
Honestly I have no idea if Benadryl will work, I have no benzos either I was just searching my cabinets for what I have and I saw anti histamine, NyQuil and benadryl and google said Benadryl and anti histamines have anti emetic properties, unsure if it'll work I'm just hoping it will. Maybe NyQuil can work?

 

[flufflepuff]

I hope you find the peace you are search for. good luck, I hope the process isn't too painful for you.

thank you for the kind words! i really appreciate it. i hope i peace aswell

 

[geepeedee]

may you find peace. hope it all works out for you.