CTB today (GWRM)

[arsencio354]

It's about that time everyone. Get ready with me as I prepare to leave this realm! I am actually pretty excited to go.




Method​

I will be consuming a tea made from the roots of one of the world's most poisonous plant, Aconitum Carmichaeli (Wolfsbane or Monkshood), along with a few other pills in order to alleviate symptoms of anxiety, stress, and pain. This will be my first and hopefully last time with this method and my 3rd attempt to CTB within the past 10 years.

What is Aconitum?
*Aconitum napellus (A. napellus, also known as monkshood or wolfsbane) is a herb often grown as an ornamental plant due to its attractive blue to dark purple flowers. All parts of the plant, especially the roots, contain toxins. Aconitine is the most dangerous of these toxins. It is most noted as a heart poison but is also a potent nerve poison.

What are the symptoms?
*Common signs of monkshood poisoning include tingling, tongue and mouth go numb, nausea with vomiting, breathing becomes harder and laboured, pulse and heartbeat become weak and irregular, skin is cold and clammy.​

Patients with internal Aconitum poisoning will have cardiovascular (slows and stops the heart), neurological (pain, convulsions, paralysis), gastrointestinal symptoms (nausea and vomiting) and there are often other signs (for example, confusion and mania can occur if the alkaloids reach the brain). The most common symptoms after research seems to be nausea, vomiting, stomach cramps and reduced or full loss of consciousness. Multiple organ failure is likely.

In most cases, victims lose consciousness before death. I know most people are gonna look at the symptoms and try to tell me to find a better method or that I can always change my mind but I want to leave so I politely ask that no one tries to dissuade me. There is NO cure for aconite poisoning. The only thing that can be done is systemic treatment to counteract the symptoms and wait. Most people who contact medical services within an hour survive however, I will not be calling for help at all.

To alleviate the symptoms associated with aconite poisoning I will be taking Naproxen 1500mg to alleviate any pain, 70mg buspirone for anxiety, 1.5 mg clonidine to help slow my heart rate and as a sedative, 2g of indica marijuana as a sedative, antianxiety and antiemetic, as well as a moderate amount of alcohol to depress my central nervous system and suppress my survival instincts.

As of 4:00 PM EST, I have taken 20 mg buspirone along as 10000mg ashwagandha extract to start relieving any anxiety and dampen my emotions. I plan to drink the 57g wolfsbane tea I prepared earlier this afternoon around 6-7 PM EST. After this post, I plan to begin drinking while listening to music. I will begin smoking around an hour before I drink my tea. My suicide letter/notes have been made and I have schedule text messages to go out to my loved ones tomorrow at 5 am. I will be on if anyone wants to talk. I can handle my alcohol pretty well so hopefully I'll be able to update you guys on how I feel after I take the lethal tea as symptoms can take anywhere from 3-30 minutes.

I also made a previous thread where I talked about this method and posted case studies regarding aconite poisoning.

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Time ​	Medication​
4:00 PM​

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[wellherewego_]

Thank you for your courage. I'll be following along. I hope you achieve greatness

 

[arsencio354]

Thank you for your courage. I'll be following along. I hope you achieve greatness

Ty that means alot rn <3

 

[Miss Anthropy]

All of the best and sincerely wishing you a peaceful journey!

 

[arsencio354]

Just crushed naproxen and mixed with a shot of wine to help it absorb faster. Waiting 10 minutes before I take rest of buspirone with water.

 

[GasMonkey]

See you on the Other Side.

 

[y'ffre]

I hope you find peace!

 

[AVeryLazySloth]

I wish you the best, I hope you find some peace <3

 

[Avyn]

I wish you the best! Rest in peace, see you on the other side <3 If you want to talk to someone and changed your mind, I'm always here! Ctb is extremely hard, I hope you find the peace you've been looking for

 

[arsencio354]

Finished taking the rest of the buspirone, I feel really calm already, probably from my previous dose + the ashwagandha. Gonna drink a bit more wine as I am slighlty buzzed. Then I am gonna stop for a bit, smoke the weed, then finish the wine with the clonidine. Gonna take the tea within 10 minutes of drinking the clonidine as I don't want to pass out before taking the tea.

 

[Badatlove]

Wish you a lot of peace. You are very brave and your plan sounds well thought

 

[FuneralCry]

Farewell, I wish you the best and I hope that you find the freedom that you are searching for.

 

[arsencio354]

Downed another glass of wine, gonna smoke now, feeling pretty good.
smoked 2 bowls, just gonna chill for 26 minutes, then take the clonidine @ 5:50 and then the tea @ 6
Forgot to mention I gave my friend my account login to update if I was successful or not in ctb within 24-48 hours.

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Taking 1.5 mg clonidine with 15mg lexapro mixed in, crushed and mixed with a shot of wine mixed with tequila.

 

[arsencio354]

6:02 PM
About to take the tea and then follow up with a shot of wine mixed vodka that I infused with 10 crushed aconitum seeds. I feel like I can easily fall asleep if i get in my bed rn.
6:05 PM
Drank the poison concoction straight up with no hesistation!! My SI was nonexistent. I just secured my death and I feel pretty happy rn.
6:09 PM

Laying in my bed now, on my side, switched to my phone. Heart is racing really fast, stomach feels warm but that could be from the liquor.
6:10 PM

Arms getting really numb , omg I think i'm gonna be paralyzed soon. I read in report that alcohol can hasten the effects of aconitum.

 

[Gonnerr]

Farewell , rip , where did you get Aconitum ?

 

[arsencio354]

Farewell , rip , where did you get Aconitum ?

i'm still able to move, my arms are just really numb but my high is making this pretty comfortable along with the pain medication, I read in sources that death usually occurs in 1-4 hours. I got my aconitum from etsy, you could also try ebay. If you can't get access on the plant or plant matter, you can easily order seeds online and just crush them and add them to your liquid of choice.
6:25 PM

my breathing is pretty laboured, i think im gonna pass out within the next 10 minutes. I can feel my lungs getting a bit delayed

 

[Gonnerr]

i'm still able to move, my arms are just really numb but my high is making this pretty comfortable along with the pain medication, I read in sources that death usually occurs in 1-4 hours. I got my aconitum from etsy, you could also try ebay. If you can't get access on the plant or plant matter, you can easily order seeds online and just crush them and add them to your liquid of choice.
6:25 PM

my breathing is pretty laboured, i think im gonna pass out within the next 10 minutes. I can feel my lungs getting a bit delayed

Thanks , i just found the seeds on etsy , very cheap. How is the pain right now?

 

[LittleJem]

wishing you all the luck and well deserved rest and peace. Thank you for your gift to us and your thoughtfulness

 

[Krobo]

An impressively Greek way to go. Wishing you luck!

 

[LookAway]

Wow what a very well typed out in detailed thread. Wish you the best OP.

 

[_smile_]

Hope you're resting easy and you were comfortable on your way out.

 

[Touhou]

Rest in peace.

 

[R4cket]

Good luck OP see you on the other side

 

[Kasumi]

Safe and peaceful travels ♡

 

[wellherewego_]

Wondering how you are today OP? Don't be afraid to share if it didn't work but also I hope you're at peace. You deserve it.

 

[WorthlessCoward]

I guess he's dead, good for him

Wolfsbane is also great against werewolves

An impressively Greek way to go. Wishing you luck!

It's not hemlock but hey, pretty close

 

[arsencio354]

Failed, after 18 hours of sleeping. I was in and out of consciousness and my breathing was pretty laboured, sometimes I would forget to breathe but last minute my lungs would kick in. My limbs were semi paralyzed if that makes sense, just really numb and heavy but I could toss and turn with enough willpower and reach my phone with enough willpower. The only time I remember waking up is to projectile vomit about 4-6 times. The first time I woke up was about 10pm to vomit and then I woke up again around 3am vomiting again several times. When I woke up around 3 am, I managed to turn off my prescheduled texts so I didn't wake up to the police and family here :). No psych ward for me hehe. During the whole experience there was no pain really, I guess the pain relievers worked. It burned a little whenever I threw up because my stomach was filled with alcohol and it was burn a bit coming out my mouth and nose but it went away after a few seconds. I don't really have an explanation on why I failed. I think it could've been cause my dosage was wrong . A case study i saw said 0.2g per kg of body weight should be lethal but now that i'm thinking, I think they meant raw aconite. I used processed aconitum which according to reports can still be lethal when I probably should've gotten my hands on raw aconitum. I think I'm gonna try again but with less alcohol and more crushed seeds cause I used up all of the processed aconitum and barely used much of the seeds. Forgot to mention that I fasted for 24 hours beforehand too so my stomach was literally filled with alcohol with a bit a water. I'm dead broke rn and I threw away some of my stuff thinking I was gonna be dead by this so now im gonna get a job or sell some of my things to get my hands on more aconitum or opiates from the darknet along with xanax since I did have a doctors appointment to get some but canceled cause I wanted to CTB and not wait.

 

[wellherewego_]

Failed, after 18 hours of sleeping. I was in and out of consciousness and my breathing was pretty laboured, sometimes I would forget to breathe but last minute my lungs would kick in. My limbs were semi paralyzed if that makes sense, just really numb and heavy but I could toss and turn with enough willpower and reach my phone with enough willpower. The only time I remember waking up is to projectile vomit about 4-6 times. The first time I woke up was about 10pm to vomit and then I woke up again around 3am vomiting again several times. When I woke up around 3 am, I managed to turn off my prescheduled texts so I didn't wake up to the police and family here :). No psych ward for me hehe. During the whole experience there was no pain really, I guess the pain relievers worked. It burned a little whenever I threw up because my stomach was filled with alcohol and it was burn a bit coming out my mouth and nose but it went away after a few seconds. I don't really have an explanation on why I failed. I think it could've been cause my dosage was wrong . A case study i saw said 0.2g per kg of body weight should be lethal but now that i'm thinking, I think they meant raw aconite. I used processed aconitum which according to reports can still be lethal when I probably should've gotten my hands on raw aconitum. I think I'm gonna try again but with less alcohol and more crushed seeds cause I used up all of the processed aconitum and barely used much of the seeds. Forgot to mention that I fasted for 24 hours beforehand too so my stomach was literally filled with alcohol with a bit a water. I'm dead broke rn and I threw away some of my stuff thinking I was gonna be dead by this so now im gonna get a job or sell some of my things to get my hands on more aconitum or opiates from the darknet along with xanax since I did have a doctors appointment to get some but canceled cause I wanted to CTB and not wait. View attachment 106566

I'm sorry to hear that but glad you're in okay spirits. A lot of people say alcohol works but the way my liver is set up it almost makes me reject anything I have in my system when I have alcohol in it for more than a day. I know the alcohol helps give courage and can help to calm but maybe it's not the best in this situation. Keep posting and stay active while you recover and let us know your next plan.

Glad you're okay but also I wish you were at peace

I'm sorry to hear that but glad you're in okay spirits. A lot of people say alcohol works but the way my liver is set up it almost makes me reject anything I have in my system when I have alcohol in it for more than a day. I know the alcohol helps give courage and can help to calm but maybe it's not the best in this situation. Keep posting and stay active while you recover and let us know your next plan.

Glad you're okay but also I wish you were at peace

Also pre-scheduled texts are good but I would give yourself a few days so that way there is no chance at resurrection. Also make sure you have a DNR close by. Not sure it helps in these scenarios but it doesn't hurt to try.

 

[arsencio354]

I guess he's dead, good for him

Wolfsbane is also great against werewolves


It's not hemlock but hey, pretty close

Hemlock is actually native to Florida and I see it all the time here, maybe I should try it.

I'm sorry to hear that but glad you're in okay spirits. A lot of people say alcohol works but the way my liver is set up it almost makes me reject anything I have in my system when I have alcohol in it for more than a day. I know the alcohol helps give courage and can help to calm but maybe it's not the best in this situation. Keep posting and stay active while you recover and let us know your next plan.

Glad you're okay but also I wish you were at peace

Also pre-scheduled texts are good but I would give yourself a few days so that way there is no chance at resurrection. Also make sure you have a DNR close by. Not sure it helps in these scenarios but it doesn't hurt to try.

yes yes yes to less alcohol next time, I think if i didn't throw up so much it probably would've worked but I did manage to keep it in almost 4 hours after ingesting it. Also thanks for the tips, definitely gonna set up a DNR and space out my texts some more. I just didn't want my body to start decaying on my bed.

 

[outrider567]

Failed, after 18 hours of sleeping. I was in and out of consciousness and my breathing was pretty laboured, sometimes I would forget to breathe but last minute my lungs would kick in. My limbs were semi paralyzed if that makes sense, just really numb and heavy but I could toss and turn with enough willpower and reach my phone with enough willpower. The only time I remember waking up is to projectile vomit about 4-6 times. The first time I woke up was about 10pm to vomit and then I woke up again around 3am vomiting again several times. When I woke up around 3 am, I managed to turn off my prescheduled texts so I didn't wake up to the police and family here :). No psych ward for me hehe. During the whole experience there was no pain really, I guess the pain relievers worked. It burned a little whenever I threw up because my stomach was filled with alcohol and it was burn a bit coming out my mouth and nose but it went away after a few seconds. I don't really have an explanation on why I failed. I think it could've been cause my dosage was wrong . A case study i saw said 0.2g per kg of body weight should be lethal but now that i'm thinking, I think they meant raw aconite. I used processed aconitum which according to reports can still be lethal when I probably should've gotten my hands on raw aconitum. I think I'm gonna try again but with less alcohol and more crushed seeds cause I used up all of the processed aconitum and barely used much of the seeds. Forgot to mention that I fasted for 24 hours beforehand too so my stomach was literally filled with alcohol with a bit a water. I'm dead broke rn and I threw away some of my stuff thinking I was gonna be dead by this so now im gonna get a job or sell some of my things to get my hands on more aconitum or opiates from the darknet along with xanax since I did have a doctors appointment to get some but canceled cause I wanted to CTB and not wait. View attachment 106566

Sounds like you went thru torture, I'm so sorry---Maybe you should try the Nitrogen method instead next time

Hemlock is actually native to Florida and I see it all the time here, maybe I should try it.

yes yes yes to less alcohol next time, I think if i didn't throw up so much it probably would've worked but I did manage to keep it in almost 4 hours after ingesting it. Also thanks for the tips, definitely gonna set up a DNR and space out my texts some more. I just didn't want my body to start decaying on my bed.

Florida is also loaded with Oleander, a pretty pink and white flowering plant, but also quite deadly to humans