Discussion Ctb thread with Benzocaine/Cyanotic Fallout

[Jisatsu]

This is a pre-made post for when I know I'll be gone. I plan to have this post on my birthday... the day I'm supposed to turn 27.

I took benzocaine powder and oral anesthetic.
I'm taking a significant amount way more then I'd actually recommend anyone ever take... but I'm exhausted from making so many attempts and at this point I want it to be overkill.

My plan is to fast for 12 hours
Take 2mg of klonopin a hour before I take everything.
I have 4 small bottles of oral anesthetic which would come out to around 8.8g.
And I plan to take two shots of benzocaine powder mixed with vodka... which will be 25g.

So in total I'm taking 33.8g ...
I'm nervous but I can't stand to keep living and filling a role that has already served its purpose.

I'll be the first to ctb using this method on this forum and I hope with my death it helps others find peace as well.

 

[UserFromNowhere]

Was always nice reading your posts, but I could see how much you were suffering. Hopefully you're resting peacefully now.

 

[sweetdrowning]

I hope it was peaceful for you... I will miss seeing you on the forum. Rest easy

 

[dewdfish]

I've been reading your posts and you've always been incredibly helpful with methods. I hope you're successful and reach peace, Hela. Thank you for the contributions to this forum and community. Safe travels, sweetie

Also, great music taste!

 

[Xi-Xi]

Damn... Please.... Don't go.... but it's selfish of me to want you here...

 

[Riven]

i hope that you've managed to find peace now. you were a great part of this forum and i'll miss seeing you around. i wish you the best in whatever comes after this life

 

[spero_meliora]

i hope you've managed to finally find peace, hela. you were so good in trying to help everyone, and even in this thread you thought to document your method.

heartbroken to finally see this thread, really glad i got to chat with you a little beforehand hope your journey was a soft one.

 

[darksouls]

goodbye, I hope you have found your peace