ctb over phone

[catdaddy2601]

Gonna give another go at CTB tonight, going to buy 20ml GHB ... My survival instinct kicked in last time, really don't want it to happen again.

Never asked this before, but is anyone will to be on the phone with me? I might chicken out but if I hear someone else reassuring me that everything will be okay it might help me... I just don't want to wake up tomorrow.

 

[catdaddy2601]

Bump ....I just got 20ml ghb now , currently sitting in my room, just popped two anti ematic tablets and I purposely havent eaten anything today, so hopefully when I do gulp it I'll die pretty quickly... I just don't want to die alone, I'm scared, even though I shouldnt be, survival instinct I guess .. can someone call me or stay in the phone with me via an app ? I just want to get it over and done with as soon as possible so I don't have to wake up tomorrow I can't go on living like this it's been 32 years too long !!

 

[AnotherTragicName]

I think that could put one in some legal troubles... plus, I would not want to carry that responsibility. Assuring someone to push through with suicide is no joke, morally. You gotta know if you are really ready or not.
I understand your dilemma, still I think suicide is meant for people who are strong enough to push through with it.
I also can't do it, but I don't think putting that burden on others is acceptable.

I wish you all the best, good luck.

 

[catdaddy2601]

I understand I'm sorry to put that pressure onto another person... I'm gonna try doing it myself. ... Wish me luck plz

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand the survival instinct is hard to overcome. We are programmed to survive after all. I'm sorry that things are so hopeless. I hope you find the peace you are looking for and freedom from pain and suffering.

 

[Lone_Gray_Wolf]

Judging by your "last online" seems like you are still here, with us. I gotta say, I did a videocall with someone who did not want to die alone and, while I could not see him taking SN, I heard everything and it's still taking a tool on me. Is sad to be there. Despite this, someone might be willing to accompany you but it will not be me; I went through it once and doing it again would brake me completely.