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Sphinxi

Sphinxi

Student
Jan 4, 2026
101
I am full of trepidation, but I am also very excited. I have been unable to stop shaking in anticipation all day. I am going to get drunk and take 5x my normal dosage of seroquel in order to overcome si. I will ride a train to the station near the bridge, walk up to it, and jump off.

I feel so happy about it. I am excited for my life to end in a way that feels controlling and dramatic. I have finished all of my notes. In under 48 hours, I won't have to care about anything anymore. I will not be bothered by my scars, by the pain of looking others in the eye, or by the feeling of buildings towering over me. I am genuinely excited to end my life
 
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Realog11

Specialist
Dec 4, 2025
386
I am full of trepidation, but I am also very excited. I have been unable to stop shaking in anticipation all day. I am going to get drunk and take 5x my normal dosage of seroquel in order to overcome si. I will ride a train to the station near the bridge, walk up to it, and jump off.

I feel so happy about it. I am excited for my life to end in a way that feels controlling and dramatic. I have finished all of my notes. In under 48 hours, I won't have to care about anything anymore. I will not be bothered by my scars, by the pain of looking others in the eye, or by the feeling of buildings towering over me. I am genuinely excited to end my life
Same I'm catching the bus today or tomorrow
 
amor.dor

amor.dor

Ghost
Dec 24, 2025
244
I'll miss your posts. I hope you get what you want in a peaceful way, and from the height you described, it should be instant. Take care — no need to rush.
 
Xi-Xi

Xi-Xi

The Next Phantom Thief (Fae/Faer)
Nov 19, 2025
159
If you are dead set on this, good luck.
 
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dalemar

Arcanist
Nov 20, 2025
413
Good luck, I hope you find your well deserved peace.
I hope you have a swift journey!
 

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