Discussion ctb on july 10 but now, i'm finding it hard to take care of myself?

[nowherelilies]

struggling and i feel bad but i literally see no point in eating anymore since my deadline is near anyways. like, i'm going to die anyway so why even bother do these things? i haven't eaten a full meal in two days and my stomach's hurting but i can't do anything except lay down in bed. has anyone here felt this way too upon nearing their planned ctb date?

 

[Ch4in3dcr0w]

first and foremost im so sorry that u have to ctb to feel the relieve from this horrible life u need. I never had a date of ctb so i cant give any advice than just living to the date u planned and not making yourself feel even more pain than u are already in i can only guess that u choose the date and method for a reason and dying before that sounds really uncomfortable. I hope everything that u hope comes after death becomes real and good luck. Much love

 

[tryme]

Yeah I think this is rather typical. Tho I don't have a set date in stone now I have circumstances that can force me to attempt everyday. It's hard to get energy or do anything under such circumstances.

 

[nowherelilies]

Yeah I think this is rather typical. Tho I don't have a set date in stone now I have circumstances that can force me to attempt everyday. It's hard to get energy or do anything under such circumstances.

i think it's the lack of energy too in my part. everything feels like it's too much work and i literally don't want to put any effort in even taking care of myself anymore.

first and foremost im so sorry that u have to ctb to feel the relieve from this horrible life u need. I never had a date of ctb so i cant give any advice than just living to the date u planned and not making yourself feel even more pain than u are already in i can only guess that u choose the date and method for a reason and dying before that sounds really uncomfortable. I hope everything that u hope comes after death becomes real and good luck. Much love

i think i'll try to do the bare minimum just to get myself until my end date. i hope everything works out well for you too. thank you for being kind to me.