Ctb is getting harder and harder

[rorowanttogetout👍🏽]

I feel like ctb is getting harder and harder by every year coming. The society is getting stricter and things that people want to use to ctb are getting very very hard to get i feel like I really have to be fast and do it bc it's really getting harder . At the same time i have really really Limited options like truly i only have one way out that i may consider, even this way is super hard to do and I don't live alone I really don't know what to do

 

[socrates]

It's really hard. You use to be able to go to the doctor and complain about insomnia. Then be prescribed a bunch of barbiturates that you could easily overdose on. If you need help it's getting more expensive every year. And if you call a "help line" they call the police which imho is the words dumbest thing to do. It's not all bad though. The internet has made getting knowledge so much easier.

 

[SilentSadness]

It is most definitely getting harder, and I'm aware of it. All the reliable OD methods have been restricted, and there aren't really any other peaceful methods. Not to mention that the internet is getting censored more and more and this site is like a sandcastle standing against the sea. I think in the future ctb will be impossible and we will be trapped here until old age. Sadly, I know all too well I am destined to die a horrible ctb death but I guess that is the price for leaving this sick world. I guess I am lucky I can even use one of the brutal methods.

 

[FuneralCry]

It certainly is, and it disgusts me how suicide isn't viewed as a valid option in this awful world despite the fact that there is unlimited potential to suffer. It's so horrible to want to make people prisoners to this existence until they slowly decay and die from old age, the fact is that not everyone wishes to suffer in an meaningless existence for decades on end, for me the only comfort lies in the thought of being gone. But just the fact that peaceful and reliable ways to die are restricted from us proves that this world is hell, it's such a cruel punishment feeling trapped here.

 

[rorowanttogetout👍🏽]

I am genuinely trapped here i feel suffocated , how do y'all cope ,really how do y'all go with your day i am fucking trapped here I dropped out of college i can not study I don't have the strength for it how can I support myself until i ctp !? I can't find a job either . I am going insane i am truly forced to work my but off to "live" but i don't want to live seriously wtf , the rage i'm feeling is unbearable.

 

[UKscotty]

I'm not sure, I think it's getting easier.

More information is available than ever before and thanks to things like the darkweb markets, most drugs are readily available.

Methods that actually work and get used will likely remain the same forever. Humans are ultimately killed by hanging, jumping, shooting or a small handful of toxic substances. Yes, there are countless other methods but the most common ones will never change and you can't 'restrict' access to them.

 

[unnormal9]

This is why I'm leaning to car wrecking. There are no other reliable methods.
why can't i just mosey down to a booth to die instantly, no questions, nothing just die peacefully.

It is most definitely getting harder, and I'm aware of it. All the reliable OD methods have been restricted, and there aren't really any other peaceful methods. Not to mention that the internet is getting censored more and more and this site is like a sandcastle standing against the sea. I think in the future ctb will be impossible and we will be trapped here until old age. Sadly, I know all too well I am destined to die a horrible ctb death but I guess that is the price for leaving this sick world. I guess I am lucky I can even use one of the brutal methods.

This is a fate worse than the Day of Lavos.

 

[disabledlife]

I'm not sure, I think it's getting easier.

More information is available than ever before and thanks to things like the darkweb markets, most drugs are readily available.

Methods that actually work and get used will likely remain the same forever. Humans are ultimately killed by hanging, jumping, shooting or a small handful of toxic substances. Yes, there are countless other methods but the most common ones will never change and you can't 'restrict' access to them.

No, unfortunately not everything is available, including the dark web, N for example.

It seems to me, in SaSu forum, see pinned threads, that you came across the threads on the unavailability of N and the fact that there are only scams. Even the PPH ( Peaceful Pills Handbook, the CTB guide from Exit International, impossible to acquire when you are not at least 50 years old, but available for illegal download without necessarily being up to date) has removed all sources for obtaining N.

So SN is now an alternative, and even SN is getting harder and harder to get, a Canadian SN supplier was arrested in Toronto for selling SN to people who tried to CTB or successfully CTB. SN is a more painful method than N for CTB, although it is peaceful, but it makes you want to vomit and takes longer to work. And then, there has not been enough scientific hindsight when it comes to the reliability of the SN for CTB.

Then comes the Helium method, but when in the past the helium bottles sold to the general public were composed of pure helium, they are deesomaris composed of a minimum of 20% oxygen, so just keep the minimum quantity of O2 to be able to live, as in the atmosphere. Apparently nitrogen is a good alternative, there are pure bottles, but much more complicated and more expensive to obtain.

There is more and more monitoring of user activities on the internet, monitoring of searches such as on Google, the presence of artificial intelligence which automates and generalizes monitoring, which is increasingly intrusive and capable of automatically reporting to the authorities, suicidal users for example. All this is true, because technically possible. Soon, the surveillance cameras in the streets will have an artificial intelligence capable of analyzing any suspicious behavior of people, and therefore suicide attempts or suicidal behavior and call the police!

Here a pinned thread for unavailability of N: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/removal-of-n-from-m-from-ppeh.111996/

Here a other thread similar of this thread: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...at-does-not-say-its-name.113489/#post-1931190

 

[UKscotty]

SN was never reliable anyway, it more gave people a comfort blanket. It relies on a too complicated and array of other drugs to make it worse. Most people who CTB will pick a quick reliable method.

Whilst N is not super easy to get due to low demand, things which are much more lethal such as fentanyl or heroin are.

It's how you look at it, if it's about methods which give us some sort of peace then yes I agree they are harder to get, but the majority of us who actually go on to carry it out wouldn't use those methods anyway.

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

Yes, why they dont understand our suffering?

I am genuinely trapped here i feel suffocated , how do y'all cope ,really how do y'all go with your day i am fucking trapped here I dropped out of college i can not study I don't have the strength for it how can I support myself until i ctp !? I can't find a job either . I am going insane i am truly forced to work my but off to "live" but i don't want to live seriously wtf , the rage i'm feeling is unbearable.

I feel the same

 

[socrates]

I am genuinely trapped here i feel suffocated , how do y'all cope ,really how do y'all go with your day i am fucking trapped here I dropped out of college i can not study I don't have the strength for it how can I support myself until i ctp !? I can't find a job either . I am going insane i am truly forced to work my but off to "live" but i don't want to live seriously wtf , the rage i'm feeling is unbearable.

This one hits close to home. I feel like I'm on a time limit, find out how to die peacefully now, or I won't have that choice latter on.

 

[aitouka]

There are two sides to it I suppose. The internet is making obtaining knowledge way easier than before, yet regulations are getting so strict that obtaining a reliable and peaceful method is practically impossible. Everyone keeps targeting the methods of CTB, yet ignoring the reasons behind them, or treat those who want to CTB cruelly, willingly or unknowingly.
Hugs to all of you.

 

[DeadWallflower]

Guys, I'm REALLY struggling. I haven't posted enough to make my own post (so, I'm hoping someone sees this) my life is about to implode. I have no money I'm being kicked out on July 3rd. I have no where to go. I need to ctb before July 3rd, how can I do it? I'm thinking of choking or hanging with a belt or something idk. I've never found reliable info on that. This site is still confusing for me finding/looking up methods.

 

[Blue_mist]

It's getting harder indeed, even psychiatrists nowadays don't prescribe medication you can od, 2 weeks ago i gulped a bottle of benzos with alcohol hoping not to wake up, i got up next day with just a bad hangover, apparently my doctor didn't prescribe me the sufficient dose for od.
I agree with you calling hotline or going to ER will result in horrific consequences, like police showing up at your door or in my province for example they suspend your driver license if you tell a doctor about your Suicidality and that's why i do my best not to seek professional help at all.
I guess we all have to resort to the old classic methods as we run out of peaceful methods like N.

 

[deleted442]

I tried to ctb yesterday by burning charcoal in a bbq grill until it was white hot. I brought it inside into a small enclosed bathroom, went in and sat in the shower cubicle waiting to die. I wore headphones and listened to music to distract myself.

For some reason I got up and left the bathroom, stumbled and then passed out. The headaches have subsided and I feel ok now so I think I got away with it. I was lucky I haven't caused further brain damage. Worsening of my mental health, as a result of CO poisoning, might manifest later I don't know? Anyway I failed this attempt.

 

[TAW122]

I agree, things are getting harder to acquire or if not outright just inaccessible, especially for peaceful means. While I would have liked to acquire a peaceful method, I'm left with other brutal methods and even then, the brutal methods may also becoming harder or riskier to acquire. If I had a choice between a brutal messy death versus a peaceful, dignified death, I'd choose the latter. Sadly, in this world, even ANY reliable method, nevermind peaceful ones are going to be near impossible or just plain inaccessible, impractical to acquire and execute. This isn't even considering the challenges of overcoming the SI, hiding ideation from others who may try to intervene.

 

[thetrout]

It's such a hard decision in the first place, made harder by all these external forces conspiring to keep us all alive. Then there are the internal forces—am I making the right decisions? Maybe I'll find that exact right cocktail of medication that finally works. What if I just exercised more or tried that yoga video again? What will happen to my cat?

I feel like I'm drowning and reaching out for help, but all anyone throws me are rocks or blocks of wood. Sometimes they wave.

It shouldn't be this hard.

 

[aGoodDayToDie]

Keep an eye out for dealers and build a stockpile of geroin. Best option