Dainhla
"Lifetimes live to die"
- May 28, 2023
- 60
When I first attempted, I didn't have any other place to cut my wrists than the last stall in the girls school bathroom.
Now, I think that it would have been very nasty to find a dead corpse in a public place, so I kinda regret taking that decision.
But the thing is that I can't CTB in a private and closed place, 'cause my room does not have a locker and I only have one bathroom in my house, that don't have either a lock, so my family, that nearly all the time is at home, will notice my disappearance. I'm not allowed to stay until the morning out of my house in parties (and in fact it would be strange from me to ask for that type of permission, 'cause they know that I'm not very sociable), so I've made a very specific plan to CTB a night, where nobody will bother me.
But the thing is that for that day, I will have to wait until next year, and my question is: what if I decide to CTB before that day? Where should I do it?
My method involves drug overdose, so I've thought about going to a public place (like a library or a shopping mall) and lock myself in a closed bathroom cubicle (not a stall 'cause if I puke I will make noise that could alert people).
But then, again I ask myself: are you sure that you want to be found like that?
So does anyone have as an option CTBing in a public place, like this???
Now, I think that it would have been very nasty to find a dead corpse in a public place, so I kinda regret taking that decision.
But the thing is that I can't CTB in a private and closed place, 'cause my room does not have a locker and I only have one bathroom in my house, that don't have either a lock, so my family, that nearly all the time is at home, will notice my disappearance. I'm not allowed to stay until the morning out of my house in parties (and in fact it would be strange from me to ask for that type of permission, 'cause they know that I'm not very sociable), so I've made a very specific plan to CTB a night, where nobody will bother me.
But the thing is that for that day, I will have to wait until next year, and my question is: what if I decide to CTB before that day? Where should I do it?
My method involves drug overdose, so I've thought about going to a public place (like a library or a shopping mall) and lock myself in a closed bathroom cubicle (not a stall 'cause if I puke I will make noise that could alert people).
But then, again I ask myself: are you sure that you want to be found like that?
So does anyone have as an option CTBing in a public place, like this???
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