CTB doesn't have to be sad and depressing

[Oneness]

Our society has demonized death to the point that almost everyone is scared of it. Everyone is sad when a friend or a family member dies. But it doesn't have to be this way. Death is not inherently a bad thing. Nowhere in the fabric of this universe is it written that death is bad. That whole idea is just something people made up.

Imagine if books had magic in them that forced you to finish the whole book once you started reading, even if you hated the story. That wouldn't be nice at all, would it? Life is the same way. If you don't like the story, it's okay to close the book and move on. It's up to the reader to decide if the story is worth continuing.

I want to make it clear that I'm not anti CTB or pro CTB. I'm pro choice.

I'm going to CTB with a partner and we're going to make our CTB as beautiful and as enjoyable as possible. Here is one of the songs we'll be listening to when it's our time to go:


Take me away from here... into the light... I want to be free

 

[lizzywizzy09]

I will never not need to be reminded of this, thank you.

 

[Placo]

Nice thread, in the true spirit of Alan Watts, may I ask the method?

 

[Justnotme]

I totally agree with you! And I really like your analogy.
Death has really been made a demon

 

[Autumn_Stars]

What's so ironic is the theists think they will live forever yet eschew death. The Roman Catholics are the most hypocritical with their anti-euthanasia stance.

 

[Hotsackage]

Why fear something that is natural, and the universe will even experience

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Yes they demonized Death

Finally a thread where people see this

It's to make people fearful of Death so that you will never commit suicide so that you remain a slave and prisoner in this hell.
How can you fear something that is inevitable and will solve all your problems at once and forever . After Death is non- existence forever. No chance of pain suffering problems no bad memories: why is that something to fear? I don't fear Death .

For me Death is the best thing that could happen to me

They also confuse people. They also hide that after Death is non-existence forever . It's not like they haven't been working on finding out what a human is , what life is for hundreds of years. They have most believing that we Are not sure what a human is . We are sure a human is another animal, a machine. They have people fearing the unknown . But it's known. All science points to that after death is non-existence forever

 

[SilentSadness]

Yes I know, in fact people are so scared of death they would rather be tortured, which is astonishing.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, personally I find comfort in death as it means I'll never suffer in this existence again, all I wish for is to sleep for all eternity where this terrible, torturous existence that was always so undesirable is no longer my concern. For me there's certainly no sadness in finally being at peace from this existence that only ever caused me pain, I only hope and wish for eternal nothingness.

 

[25_]

this is comforting, thank you

 

[freakshow]

I struggle to make peace with death. Only thing that conforts me is imaging i will be reborn and have another shot at life.

 

[divinemistress36]

I wish people would have more celebrations of life instead of funerals for the deceased

 

[Alessio]

Faccio fatica a fare pace con la morte. L'unica cosa che mi conforta è immaginare che rinascerò e avrò un'altra possibilità di vivere.

Dopo il ctb mi piacerebbe tornare indietro a un periodo della mia vita e magari fare scelte diverse da quelle che mi hanno portato al ctb, sarebbe bello

 

[Oneness]

Nice thread, in the true spirit of Alan Watts, may I ask the method?

Alan Watts is truly inspiring! Our method will be SN.

Why fear something that is natural, and the universe will even experience

My thoughts exactly.

I struggle to make peace with death. Only thing that conforts me is imaging i will be reborn and have another shot at life.

Making peace with death isn't easy, and it sure doesn't happen overnight. Who knows, maybe we get reborn, no one really has the answers. If we do, I hope in our next lives we both find the peace and happiness we missed out on

Here are a few things that helped me come to terms with death:

• Studying philosophy and spirituality, like Alan Watts and his perspective on life and death
• Realizing that everyone dies eventually anyway, so death is unavoidable
• I'd rather die now while my body's still able to carry out the CTB. Later in life, I might not even get that chance
• Having a CTB partner so I'm not facing it alone
• My life story hasn't exactly been a fairytale, so it's okay to "close the book" and move on
• Dying reduces my carbon footprint to zero, so at least I'm doing the planet a favour

There might be other things too, but this is what comes to mind for now. I hope this gives you some comfort :)

After ctb I would like to go back to a period in my life and maybe make different choices from those that led me to ctb, that would be nice

Sometimes I also wish I could turn back time and change a few things. It'd be interesting to see if those tweaks would actually make me happier or not.

 

[busrider]

I don't think about my CTB as something horrible. For me CTB - is to finally find peace, finally stop feeling anxiety, fear, other negative emotions. It's just an eternal dream

 

[freakshow]

Dopo il ctb mi piacerebbe tornare indietro a un periodo della mia vita e magari fare scelte diverse da quelle che mi hanno portato al ctb, sarebbe bello

I hate my body. I wouldnt want to live in this body again. I dont want suicide because of life choices, if I wanst so hideous i would probably be a happy person or at least I would have better options than suicide.
But I understand where you come from, i also regret a bunch of things and if I could go back in time id do it no doubt.. its defitely better than dyiung and going to a complete void

 

[Placo]

Dopo il ctb mi piacerebbe tornare indietro a un periodo della mia vita e magari fare scelte diverse da quelle che mi hanno portato al ctb, sarebbe bello

Se vuoi parlare in italiano meglio qui che ti capiamo tutti: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/thread-italiano.173474/

 

[revontulet]

I agree. For me it is more peaceful idea. No more worries, stress or anything bad. After I made cbt decision panic attacks disappeared and I had them many years.

 

[Alessio]

Se vuoi parlare in italiano meglio qui che ti capiamo tutti: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/thread-italiano.173474/

Grazie mille

 

[Lookingtoflyfree]

I love this thread and the 'Having a CTB partner so I'm not facing it alone' is my goal - to have one person who 'gets' me and why ending it is inevitable. Finding someone to share the Sarco box as we die together sounds perfect.

 

[skylight7]

Our society has demonized death to the point that almost everyone is scared of it. Everyone is sad when a friend or a family member dies. But it doesn't have to be this way. Death is not inherently a bad thing. Nowhere in the fabric of this universe is it written that death is bad. That whole idea is just something people made up.

Imagine if books had magic in them that forced you to finish the whole book once you started reading, even if you hated the story. That wouldn't be nice at all, would it? Life is the same way. If you don't like the story, it's okay to close the book and move on. It's up to the reader to decide if the story is worth continuing.

I want to make it clear that I'm not anti CTB or pro CTB. I'm pro choice.

I'm going to CTB with a partner and we're going to make our CTB as beautiful and as enjoyable as possible. Here is one of the songs we'll be listening to when it's our time to go:


Take me away from here... into the light... I want to be free

This is a very beautiful and powerful post. Thank you.

 

[dagyu]

you have a beautiful way of seeing things, thank you for this insight

 

[Oneness]

I agree. For me it is more peaceful idea. No more worries, stress or anything bad. After I made cbt decision panic attacks disappeared and I had them many years.

It's such a comforting feeling, isn't it? Knowing we can opt out of this game called life. I'm glad your panic attacks have gone away :)

I love this thread and the 'Having a CTB partner so I'm not facing it alone' is my goal - to have one person who 'gets' me and why ending it is inevitable. Finding someone to share the Sarco box as we die together sounds perfect.

Having a partner who truly gets me is such a blessing. My CTB partner and I have been talking for almost two months now, and our plans are coming together smoothly. We've already got the SN, Xanax, and antiemetics! We still need to pick an exact date for our CTB, so that's next on our list. When the time comes, we'll make a proper goodbye thread here on SaSu

P.S. Check out the partners megathread to find a partner!

 

[Username1359751]

Why fear something that is natural, and the universe will even experience

Childbirth is natural too but we, the beholders of uteruses, still fear it... Nature is graphic and scary af.

 

[Manfrotto99]

I pray to have your acceptance and peace with death. To be able to let go and ctb without struggling. I will have to write out a list of benefits too and focus on these.

 

[Manfrotto99]

I fear (right now) more the shame and what people will think of me-us- after ctb rather than death, how did I change from being okay with my mental illness and suicide to this?: family members said so. Apparently mental illness is shameful and you shouldn't tarnish the family's image.i never felt like this,I always knew that what I've gone threw was harsh,yet people made me feel like it was all in my head without even going through that.weird.they make you feel guilty even before your last moments of life, can't even leave on a good memory/feelings/acceptance. I'd say the feelings they make you feel about yourself before ctb is what's hurtful, hurt while resisting and living with the mental illness trying to make things work,hurt when you decide to accept the end of your life and ctb. They hurt you either way,yet they expect you to choose the former,That's the mistake I did , prolonging things and letting people know you're not doing well, should've been fast after a short time passing,now I'm left feeling like shit about myself questioning everything,time is not with you, didn't realize that back then.

It is very sad when all your family think of is the shame it will bring on them. They expect you to think of them and stop being so selfish and get out of it, without a care in the world to how you are feeling and what you are going through. Its all about them. Then if you try to get on with life, they just put you down again and your back where you started, just prolonging things for their benefit so as not to bring shame on them.

 

[BoulderSoWhat]

I was having a grand time at the point of my ctb attempt a few months ago. Went to a quiet park in the morning. I was drinking coffee and it was good. Doing my setup and the weather felt nice I guess. I wasn't sad, or angry, not happy or anything else either. I guess I was just content? I wasn't thinking back on my life. I wasn't thinking about what may or may not happen after dying.

Lol, as cliche as the saying is, I was living in the present, because the present is what matters most, even up until the point I thought I would die

 

[willitpass]

I think death (including suicide) should have more of a nuance. You can be glad someone has moved on to something beyond this life while also grieving their loss from the life you have been left behind in. I don't think it should be exclusively one or the other.