I KNOW OTC ODs ARE LISTED AS A NON METHOD. Please do not send me links of threads of why I should reconsider, I've already read them all.
I'm honestly just laying out my plan for myself, and hopefully can receive some feedback and ways to improve it.
Please understand that I genuinely want a slow and painful death, other methods do not suit me as well as I believe an overdose would. The thought of just suddenly dying honestly bothers me. I know this is the right decision for me.
I know overdoses have very low success rate, I've done hours of research. I've been planning this for a long time. I've been so numb for so long, so at this point, I don't care about the outcome.
I plan on taking 1000 pills. 800 of them will be Tylenol (500 mg), and 200 of them will be Benadryl (25 mg). I've already crushed all of these pills into powder. I've used most of the tips listed on lostallhope.com. I have a water bottle half filled with mixed strong alcohols (~40%). I have two water bottles filled with water, which I'm going to add some drops of water flavouring to mask the pill taste. I'm going to take the powder very quickly with the water. Also, I unfortunately don't have anti nausea pills.
Honestly, I'm quite excited. If it goes my way, great. If it doesn't, at least I get to put my shitty life on pause and maybe I'll be in a coma or something, seems quite nice. If I need a new liver, I can just deny the surgery. I've done research and I think I know how to get around it.
I do actually have hope that this plan will work. Regardless if it's extremely painful or not, it's still death.
I'm honestly just laying out my plan for myself, and hopefully can receive some feedback and ways to improve it.
Please understand that I genuinely want a slow and painful death, other methods do not suit me as well as I believe an overdose would. The thought of just suddenly dying honestly bothers me. I know this is the right decision for me.
I know overdoses have very low success rate, I've done hours of research. I've been planning this for a long time. I've been so numb for so long, so at this point, I don't care about the outcome.
I plan on taking 1000 pills. 800 of them will be Tylenol (500 mg), and 200 of them will be Benadryl (25 mg). I've already crushed all of these pills into powder. I've used most of the tips listed on lostallhope.com. I have a water bottle half filled with mixed strong alcohols (~40%). I have two water bottles filled with water, which I'm going to add some drops of water flavouring to mask the pill taste. I'm going to take the powder very quickly with the water. Also, I unfortunately don't have anti nausea pills.
Honestly, I'm quite excited. If it goes my way, great. If it doesn't, at least I get to put my shitty life on pause and maybe I'll be in a coma or something, seems quite nice. If I need a new liver, I can just deny the surgery. I've done research and I think I know how to get around it.
I do actually have hope that this plan will work. Regardless if it's extremely painful or not, it's still death.
