I'd try the following:
Ketamine Clinic (500-1.5k)
Ketamine Retreats (2-4k)
TMS Therapy (got quoted 2-4k)
MDMA Therapy (Prob 10k)
Trying to stay alive costs too much lmao
-Prepay for funeral (you can also get a complimentary cruise with that sometimes LOL)
-Attorney (Will, transfer of deed, estate planning, DNR, etc)
Do not try to hire any hitmen, they're all sting operations anyways.
So instead prob just go to South America maybe Central America.
I'd go to Peru, go to Machu Picchu, do some ayahuasca retreat. If all else fails then, honestly the cheapest thing to do is ctb. Sorry I know I just replied with the most unhelpful advice. My thought process is just to make sure you've exhausted all options given your access to additional resources.