I have been thinking about ctb since I was 10. I've only ever made one serious attempt where I tried hanging and I woke up the next morning on the floor after the shitty rope broke off. Is there a way that has a high chance of living? I feel absolutely awful for saying this but I feel like my life would improve if I attempted and survived and everyone would start to realize that I'm suffering. I have horrible attention issues and I feel that it would be so euphoric to wake up on that hospital bed and see with my own eyes whether or not people would care if I ctb. And of course, there's no harm in succeeding, and I would be okay with it.
If you've got ideas, please help me out and share whatever you can. I want to find ways to survive an attempt or just do enough damage to leave my death up to chance.
If you've got ideas, please help me out and share whatever you can. I want to find ways to survive an attempt or just do enough damage to leave my death up to chance.
