Venting Crippling self doubt

[heywey]

My head feels like it's filled with a swarm of bees buzzing around, judging every action I take and thought I think. I say a word and all I'm filled with is everything else I should have said instead. Even a pleasant thought gets analyzed and picked apart until there's nothing left but the fear of never thinking anything nice ever again. I keep trying to push forward and get better, be better, but the endless buzzing of guilt and shame drowns out any sense of direction. How do I know which way is forward when it hurts no matter which way I go?

 

[DoAnythingMore]

That sounds awful, I'm very sorry you're feeling that way. Self-doubt really is the true thief of joy.

But you're trying to get better, you want to get better. That's honestly amazing, you're stronger than you probably think.

Some users will probably hate me for saying this, but have you tried or thought about getting help or starting a medication? I don't know if practicing "mindfulness" could help but maybe it's worth a try? Whatever route you take, it's not going to be easy but it won't be impossible.

I wish you all the best and I hope you'll get better with this. I believe that if there's a will there's a way. Don't give up. <3