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lilichka

lilichka

Superfluous Man
Jan 17, 2025
26
Terror. Ask me to describe the feeling of terror, and I can only reply 'ecstatic'. Fervour. Justice. Spirit. Words that give meaning to terror, the order of the day.

Terror. Terror. The fear inflicted upon man by another man. I do not fear terror, on the contrary, I feel drawn towards it. Whether it be white, red, great, or reigning, terror inspires within me an urge to be drowned by the roaring tides of ardor.

Terror. Terror. Terror. Terrorism, terrorist, terrorizer. What do these words mean? Why do they decry it? Rally against it? How pitiful these men be, to not see the unnerving beauty of terror!

Terror. Terror. Terror. Terror. I walked up the stage and met my date for tonight; a tall woman with a sharp stare. I laid my head down on her lap, to the cheering of the crowd below us. I closed my eyes, and calmly awaited her loving touch on my nape. I was her greatest love, yet her latest victim.

Terror. Terror. Terror. Terror. Terror. Off with our heads!
 
hybridtheory

hybridtheory

kels
Jun 22, 2019
487
Sharing my writing🫶🏼

//

A girl's voice cries out, but it remains trapped within her own confines, unheard by the world outside. It unleashes a torrent of feelings within her secluded haven.

With each new day, she faces the same old wounds and the intrusive thoughts that shake her sense of calm.

She continues to escape, feeling adrift and unable to find anything reliable.

She guards herself against the inescapable truth, fearing the journey toward forgiveness, when deep down, all she truly desires is the solace of understanding that her burdens were never hers to carry alone.

A girl prioritizes her peace for such a long time that now, any sound beyond a mere whisper can make her feel jarring. She has established a refuge deep within herself.

She takes steps forward, yet also retraces her path—not to dwell in the past, but to integrate that part of herself into the now. The version of herself that was limited by a past that sought to disrupt her future now travels alongside her.

Her past self walks beside her present self, not to hinder her progress, but to observe the beautiful transformation into the person she was destined to become.

Although she is uncertain about her future identity, she will learn to embrace gratitude during her journey, no matter how fiercely the hurt tries to lead her astray.

—kels
 
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Emerita

Emerita

Martyr for Peace
Jan 16, 2025
35
I felt the Graveyard of Myself,
And grief, engraved my Name.
The grounds left behind—
A barren of my Brain—

My body was breathless
But a Beating, still abide.
And my Soul, buried beneath—
The bones, supine where they lied.

Nerves root in the Underground;
Marked crosses never meet.
Moss decays upon my lips—
The living Haunted— obliged, I did not speak.

My mind, akin to a closed casket—
Though, I skinned myself for Hope;
Only the tomb touched me undressed.
It was the Earth— and I alone.

(A poem I wrote two years after my friend died, may he rest in peace ♥️)
 
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WaistedPotential

Member
Feb 5, 2025
5
to be edited....
Once a mountain, weathered by rain.
Reduced to the sand, along the bay.
Then melted into something beautiful.
Your poem is so beautiful. It reminds me of one of my own I wrote a few years ago. I've graffitied it in a few random places before, so maybe it inspired someone. it goes like this.

thoughts fall like sheets of rain

each drop taking its pebble

no one hears the quiet erosion

or sees the hill was once a mountain.
 
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Life_and_Death

Life_and_Death

Do what's best for you 🕯️ I'm............
Jul 1, 2020
7,034
Your poem is so beautiful
thank you :happy:💜
your comment came at just the right time too. just last night i was feeling like i cant write and was unsure if i ever could 😅
thoughts fall like sheets of rain

each drop taking its pebble

no one hears the quiet erosion

or sees the hill was once a mountain.
i love your poem too. its amazing how so few words can sometimes say so much
 
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Oublivien

Member
Feb 20, 2023
17
A fine line between cutting out all emotions,
And letting them all run free
Rampant and uncontrolled
Both sides representing a hell,
One, bleak cold and lifeless
The other set aflame, screams pain and disorder
 
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intintint

don't listen to her she's crazy
Feb 5, 2025
21
schizo

"Who am I but I am me?"
Poor me said, quite valiantly.
Yes, you are, but are you me?
You, i'm not, I disagree.
"Why can't you be? Don't you want to?
Look at yourself, what have done you?"
I hate what I see, so torn.
You, me, should've been unborn

You might be me, but I will not
Embrace what's left, what's gone to rot.
I see the mess, the flawed design,
A life undone, a tangled mind.
"How can you be so cruel, so cold?
Look at me, I am your soul
Can we not mend, can we not heal?
Let's be two, can't we just feel?"








stop
Screams all night, a shriek, a squeal
My eyes won't shut, my heart won't heal

My brain yells "the house is on fire",
A little quiet is my only desire
But my brain keeps yelling, " house on fire!"
Oh, please be quiet, no need for dire

"But what if it is? What if it was?
What if they hate? What if it does?
What if you do? What if you did?
But you won't, though would you bid?

They hate you, and they hate you
And you hate you, so they hate you
And you do wrong, and go so blue
So they hate you, can't you go through? "

Another night, the noise is there
My eyes wide open, they only stare
Red on my bed is all i need
A price for quiet, quite small indeed
 
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notgonnamakeit

notgonnamakeit

Member
Feb 25, 2025
20
feeling so stuck
nowhere to run
run out of luck
hand me my gun

'things will get better'
no they will not
so i'll write my letter
then let off my shot
 
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SuicidalCurryBoy

Member
Aug 22, 2020
46
Short story about my oneitis.

 
BloomingAzaleas

BloomingAzaleas

Full Bloom
Apr 13, 2023
99
Down the snowy path
Blows gentle whispers of death
Guiding the lost souls
 
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56842

56842

Member
Mar 3, 2025
30
echo of me:

I can feel my clock spinning
out of control, glitching
ephemeral time traveler
cursed by the moon
by inordinance, watch
strikes, come now, the flux
one evening a culprit
sent to bring a cataclysm
to me

come, tell me your name
I dread the waiting
expecting a surety I see
in the reflection
foggy rippling and foreign
a landscape yet to
be painted into earth's history
but those bones I know
I see I know I feel
the ache that was carved
on me

Is it the world that changed
or do I see from a different plane?
High on the world's spine
wonders only bloom at night
From this peak,
see me see free see
the veins of reality crack
in the wake of the shake
Atop a fault set in wait to
rend my world apart I sit awaiting,
a part of the change
tectonic turbulence, vibrating violence
amongst, amidst, amok,
in me

From the shelf in the sky above life
where Chronos's keeps time
I see the river of change
in this mirror of mine,
bubbling over into rapid
headed for the cliff
at the end of nothing
absence of me, there
I see nothing
but still the ache lays waiting
and I know it, as the echo
of me
 
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FinalDestiny

FinalDestiny

God’s in his heaven. All’s right with the world.
May 30, 2022
22
Sorry, I'm the kind of loser who need to take other people's words to express myself. 😅 I hope Lawliet doesn't mind his moving poetry being my muse tonight.

Who said that,
I wasn't
Rotten from the start.
Time passes, roses bloom,
And my thoughts are,
Kinda dark.
Friends speak, let em see,
Draw the curtains,
Take a stand.
Who said that,
I wasn't rotten from the start.

I used to try to find myself,
But honestly,
That's a fantasy.
Eggs yolk, mind's broke,
Time to cue the peak insanity.
Got my heart cut, stripped,
By my friends and family.
Things change, people die,
Yeah, I let em see.
Who said that,
I wasn't rotten from the start.

i guess i will go first :)) i write a lot of sad poetry.

"WILT"
our friendship, wilting
but who says it ever bloomed
rotten from the start


"HEARTLESS"
cut my heart into little strips,
hang them on my wall
show my friends and family
that i've got one, after all


and the one in my signature:

"LIVING DEAD"
most people die
when they're only teenagers,
but aren't even buried
'til they're past seventy-five
 
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SpelingNotsee666

Member
Feb 23, 2021
7
You Love to Give ☹️
Chameleon in red lipstick.
Chameleon with ball mask on.
Everyone to everything.
Every shade in faded color.
Door won't close.
Too many skeletons.
Superimposed strength.
Underneath gelatin.
Being everything is how you live.
Blinds are drawn, you love to give.
The back of your hand.
The small skeleton's resting places.
Tiny mouths, your lips.
Veins, fire and gin.
Kinky brutality loves its audience.
Never questioned yourself until you were revealed.
In the dark, you loved to steal.
Six faces for six places.
Hard things. Sad faces.
It is how you live.
You love to give.
Pain to the ribs.
A twist to the wrist.
Small feet.
Lots of traffic.
Consciences hurt the most when dying.
Someday, we all will be forced to remember.
Our feeling slipping away.
Our fingertips touching decay.
All our lives we were givers.
All our lives we were different.
Nobody knew it.
But we knew ourselves.
It was how we lived.
We loved to give.
Our screaming voices.
Bleeding ears.
Shriveled egos.
Many tears.
We were big until the roosters made us small.
We took it all until the darkness finally made us crawl.
We loved to give.
 
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BloomingAzaleas

BloomingAzaleas

Full Bloom
Apr 13, 2023
99
O' scared bird with wings of light
When will you let yourself take flight?
When you can shine instead you flee
Hiding away from the world to see

You build yourself a nest made of concrete walls
So that no one could come and hear your calls
And now you cry, trapped in your own cage
Letting yourself be overcome with age

Now every part of you is yearning to be free
To shine once more and leave this tree
O' helpless bird, your cage is where you stand
But when will you see the key was always in your hand?
 
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galaxid

galaxid

Finger Guns(tm)
Mar 11, 2025
109
that's so cool! post it :D

prose excerpt from something i wrote the other night:

"The sounding off of drunken cormogenies all thumping bottles of Tonk, singing Gaulish songs about battered Imperialists and their putschist brethren, all while the stench and sopor of night crept into their hearts and minds and slowly, assuredly, they would be careening private lies to children on chalk-covered driveways and under moth-eaten lamps, or returning to childhood corridors, running in view of doting mothers sick to the endless clambering of athletic feet up the stairs, to the aging camphor of occupants back from days out on the bridge, spitting at dinghies, snapping furtive passersby through bleeding gums."
I love this!!!!
 
hhtroc

hhtroc

Student
Mar 22, 2025
115
I wrote a couple poems, english is not my native language so I guess the rhymes could be better but whatever, I can share I guess, If not here then where lol:


A different time ago, into a world that was so bright/
the sapling broke out of the ground and for the first time saw the light/
and the sunlight shone down on it and kept it safe and warm, every rain felt like refreshment, like an adventure every storm/
And as the tree grew taller, and the first leaves started to show, it started noticing the smells of mud and the coldness of the snow/
and the sunshine became blinding and the storm so suffocating, all the termites that formed tunnels and the birds that made their home/
And the tree it kept on growing, despite whatever pain may be, for it just always thought that's what it's like to be a tree/
And so the seasons came and went and the tree stood tall and strong, and everyone who came across it never noticed something wrong/
until one night the branches fell, with an ear deafening roar/
the tree collapsed back to the ground for it was rotten to the core.
 
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BloomingAzaleas

BloomingAzaleas

Full Bloom
Apr 13, 2023
99
A poem written in Chinese Qijue

Characters:

小鸟高窝寂寞唂
飞奔泰树母飞出
当心险蛇桑枝等
跳跃天空最后呼

Pinyin:
Xiǎo niǎo gāo wō jì mò gū
Fēi bēn tài shù mǔ fēi chū
Dāng xīn xiǎn shé sāng zhī děng
Tiào yuè tiān kōng zuì hòu hū

English conversion (adjusted for meter):

Small bird tall nest soft lone cries
Dash quick safe tree mom bird flies
Watch out snake threat tree branch waits
Big leap blue sky one last sigh
 
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Michi_Violeta

Michi_Violeta

M.A. in Heartbreak and Motorsports
Feb 3, 2025
376
Two poems I wrote originally in Spanish, translated in a rush into English, would like to hear your thoughts on them.

Free ≠ Libre
Te quieren
en pedacitos y en
empaque al vacío,
en stock, envío incluido,
en un anaquel, en una vitrina,
a domicilio para mayor comodidad:
en treinta minutos (o menos).

Te desean
fácil, sin compromiso.
Una probadita de cortesía,
un pague dos y lleve tres,
un si te he visto no recuerdo.
Quieren chorizo, quieren chuleta,
y quieren pagar con tarjeta.

¿Te aman?
Como a un cigarrillo de treinta centímetros
o una pantalla de sesenta y nueve pulgadas.

Te promocionan,
te consumen,
te desangran.
Dicen que eres libre
cuando la etiqueta en
tu corazón dice gratis.

Free = Worthless

They care about you
in chunks and
vacuum-packed,
in stock, shipping included,
on a shelf, on display,
delivery available for your comfort:
thirty minutes (or less).

They want you
easy, no commitment.
A trial sample,
take three and pay two;
easy come, easy go.
They want breasts, chops,
and want to pay with card.

They love you?
Like a thirty centimeters cigarette
or a sixty-nine inch screen.

They advertise you,
consume you,
bleed you dry.
They say you're free
when the sticker on your
heart says worthless.

Besitos de Zopiclona​
Cada mañana seguro pensamos cosas diferentes,
tú yo.
Caminas egoísta por llanuras más verdes
mientras yo maldigo abrir otra vez los ojos.

Tus besos de noche los recibe ahora un imbécil.
Mis labios ya no sienten otros que me reconozcan
y den sentido a tanto frío, dolor, tanto esfuerzo
ahora solo rozan un polvillo blanco comprimido.

Ya no duermes a mi lado, espalda con espalda,
haciendo que la noche se sienta hermosa
y la vida segura.

Duermo cuando le da la gana a un sedante.
Duermo con una libra de veneno bajo el colchón
donde antes descansábamos enamorados

Besitos de esperanza guardan mis recuerdos,
besitos de zopiclona para esta noche.

Zopiclone Kisses​
We surely think very different things every morning,
you and I.
You walk selfish on greener grass,
I curse having again to open my eyes.

Your kisses at night are now for an idiot.
My lips no longer feel others that recognize me
and make sense of so much cold, pain, effort,
they only brush compressed white powder.

You no longer sleep by my side, back to back,
making nights feel beautiful
and life feel safe.

I sleep whenever a sedative says so
I sleep with a pound of poison under the mattress
on which we used to rest together in love.

Hopeful kisses in my memories,
Zopiclone kisses for me tonight.
 
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BlueLock

Member
Nov 8, 2024
31
I wrote fanfiction (I'm cringe but free) about a character named Rin Itoshi from the anime/manga Blue Lock struggling with suicidal thoughts.

Sometimes Rin got into moods like this during the off season, where his anger would simmer out and all that was left was a sense of complete and total emptiness.
He'd sleep in, skip meals, mope around the house for a bit. During the day he wouldn't think of anything in particular, but at night he'd be kept up by racing thoughts. Sometimes he thought about killing himself during these episodes. Sometimes he'd buy a rope, just in case.

They usually didn't last long, he'd bounce back to his 'normal' in a few days. He'd wake up feeling some spark of motivation. Shower, clean up the house, cook a meal, and toss the rope in the trash. It was just another routine of his.

He never reached out during times like this, he had no desire to and if he did… Well there wasn't anyone worth reaching out to, he reasoned. He wasn't close to any of his teammates and had no close friends. 'There's no reason to trouble Mom or Dad while I'm overseas, and Sae… fuck Sae fuck everything about him he doesn't deserve to know anything about me.'

'Would the bastard even care? Would Nii-chan be worried about me?'

A younger Rin wouldn't even worry about these things, 'of course he loves us! He's always looking out for us and he's always taking care of us and getting us ice cream and cleaning up our messes and and and AND–'

Rin at 20 has no clue what his brother thinks of him, besides the obvious; where soccer's concerned he's still lukewarm, disgusting, and above all a fucking disappointment. But outside of the sport he's devoted his whole being to–who knows, who the hell knows what goes through his brother's head. If there is anyone who does it's certainly not Rin.

Rin thought he knew once, but that was a long time ago. Now Sae's someone entirely new, and he supposes, 'I am too.' They've both changed. When that happened Rin couldn't say, he could point to that winter's night as the breaking point but that doesn't feel right, it's too easy to say if things went down differently that night everything would be okay.

A bond as strong as theirs shouldn't have been broken after one night, one fight. Something must've been brewing for a while. Over the years Rin has thought of all the possible reasons why Sae left him, 'he never loved me, he only wanted a training partner out of me, now that he found someone better he's discarded me,' is what he thought of at first then, 'he's testing me even now he's only pretending to hate me so I can grow and reach his standards,' and after he had left blue lock and turned his anger towards the world inwards it turned into, 'he was just upset that night, I was being childish I should've just accepted his new dream and none of this would've happened.' Nowadays he thinks the answer is simpler.

He's cycled through many explanations, driven himself crazy over many late nights just trying to understand the brother who wants nothing to do with him. But now he's settled on this; he got bored.

Of him, his soccer, their country, their bond. Of everything to do with Rin.

Rin sucks in a breath and looks down at his lap, he hadn't even realized his hands were shaking till now. He took in a deep breath and held it till he felt dizzy. He let out a shaky breath, and repeated this until he calmed down. He got up to get a glass of water and as he did he banished all thoughts of Sae from his mind.
It's better to not think about these kinds of things, especially not now. Rin already feels like he's teetering the edge, and trying to solve the eternal mystery of his brother would surely push him off it.
 
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cemeteryismyhome

Member
Mar 15, 2025
48
Scratches

When I tire of holding it back, I set it free. Such delicious pain when its large paws slice me from inside. I bleed, it scratches away a tiny bit of me. Sometimes it tears off larger chunk, devoured in sweet victory. It's a little stronger and I'm a little weaker, a little less. It will win. It inevitably will win. I don't care. I crave the pain, the loss, the death it brings. From an awkward something to an untortured nothing. It will win. I will lose. I don't mind. It feels so good to bleed, to shudder in pain so powerful, to slowly die a little at a time. To the monster within, I am strange. I welcome it, I love its hatred of me, its unstoppable destruction of me. It doesn't care and neither do I. I bleed, I hurt beyond pain, every time there's a little less of me, and that's ok.
 
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galaxid

Finger Guns(tm)
Mar 11, 2025
109
I wrote fanfiction (I'm cringe but free) about a character named Rin Itoshi from the anime/manga Blue Lock struggling with suicidal thoughts.

Sometimes Rin got into moods like this during the off season, where his anger would simmer out and all that was left was a sense of complete and total emptiness.
He'd sleep in, skip meals, mope around the house for a bit. During the day he wouldn't think of anything in particular, but at night he'd be kept up by racing thoughts. Sometimes he thought about killing himself during these episodes. Sometimes he'd buy a rope, just in case.

They usually didn't last long, he'd bounce back to his 'normal' in a few days. He'd wake up feeling some spark of motivation. Shower, clean up the house, cook a meal, and toss the rope in the trash. It was just another routine of his.

He never reached out during times like this, he had no desire to and if he did… Well there wasn't anyone worth reaching out to, he reasoned. He wasn't close to any of his teammates and had no close friends. 'There's no reason to trouble Mom or Dad while I'm overseas, and Sae… fuck Sae fuck everything about him he doesn't deserve to know anything about me.'

'Would the bastard even care? Would Nii-chan be worried about me?'

A younger Rin wouldn't even worry about these things, 'of course he loves us! He's always looking out for us and he's always taking care of us and getting us ice cream and cleaning up our messes and and and AND–'

Rin at 20 has no clue what his brother thinks of him, besides the obvious; where soccer's concerned he's still lukewarm, disgusting, and above all a fucking disappointment. But outside of the sport he's devoted his whole being to–who knows, who the hell knows what goes through his brother's head. If there is anyone who does it's certainly not Rin.

Rin thought he knew once, but that was a long time ago. Now Sae's someone entirely new, and he supposes, 'I am too.' They've both changed. When that happened Rin couldn't say, he could point to that winter's night as the breaking point but that doesn't feel right, it's too easy to say if things went down differently that night everything would be okay.

A bond as strong as theirs shouldn't have been broken after one night, one fight. Something must've been brewing for a while. Over the years Rin has thought of all the possible reasons why Sae left him, 'he never loved me, he only wanted a training partner out of me, now that he found someone better he's discarded me,' is what he thought of at first then, 'he's testing me even now he's only pretending to hate me so I can grow and reach his standards,' and after he had left blue lock and turned his anger towards the world inwards it turned into, 'he was just upset that night, I was being childish I should've just accepted his new dream and none of this would've happened.' Nowadays he thinks the answer is simpler.

He's cycled through many explanations, driven himself crazy over many late nights just trying to understand the brother who wants nothing to do with him. But now he's settled on this; he got bored.

Of him, his soccer, their country, their bond. Of everything to do with Rin.

Rin sucks in a breath and looks down at his lap, he hadn't even realized his hands were shaking till now. He took in a deep breath and held it till he felt dizzy. He let out a shaky breath, and repeated this until he calmed down. He got up to get a glass of water and as he did he banished all thoughts of Sae from his mind.
It's better to not think about these kinds of things, especially not now. Rin already feels like he's teetering the edge, and trying to solve the eternal mystery of his brother would surely push him off it.
I really like this!! I really love fanfiction and though I don't know the anime or anything, I think you write very well.
 

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