Discussion Crawling in my skin

[ctb_warrior]

Crawling in my skin, these wounds, they will not heal...


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We all have been battered and bruised in life to the extent that these wounds are deep inside, no matter how hard we try, nothing seems to help.. They don't seem to heal and the only path seems to be to ctb.

I have fucking used all my techniques to improve my life and every time I have improved life better than before, but life seemed to be consistent enough to punch me in my face harder.


I know how to help others, i can bring others out of suicidal state, i can heal others, but i can't help myself..

I don't feel like living even a single day but I don't have a method to ctb


Itz just that you all give me the energy to drag myself each day. I love to talk to each one of you.

Feel free to connect with me..

I can help you if you wanna improve your life, i can also help if you wanna seek peace


I have 2 decades of experience of trying to ctb, and also, of improving my life and others life.


Just fyi, today I'm living a life that most people dream of. So when I say I can help you improve your life, yes I can. I live a luxurious life with a good pay where I don't have to think before I spend. (This is not to show off but to tell that i have actually improved my life as well until i can ctb)


I'm that person, who was told that my career is over.. and I'm that person who proved them all wrong in their fckin face.. so much so, several years later they tried to contact me to get some loan.

It's just that i have lost my spark to live because my purpose to live is gone. I loved her so much. She came into my life like a fresh Breeze of air and in the end, she took my soul and everything else away.
Otherwise I even went to the UK to setup a career for myself and her, but she was cheating on me already and I had to wrap it all up.
I have no reason to live. I'm just surviving each day.

If I sum up my life, my life theme is , intelligent mind with a sensitive heart is a curse. I needed to be bold and insensitive and a bit ruthless. Even towards my parents, I should have been insensitive. My parents are too simple and they dragged me down to simplicity, I'm tenacious and powerful.

I have fought mind games in my workplace and defeated the toughest of politicians by my truthfulness..


So, dear friends, I'm here, feel free to pick my brain if it can help you live a better life.. I'll be glad to use my existence to guide you while I'm still alive.


Life can be good...
I'm not a pro lifer, but sometimes we give up too soon , because we don't know solutions exist.

I want to ctb, because I'm done with life, but I'll help you all with all my might and knowledge

My dms are open if you need any kind of guidance.

 

[Somewhat Suicidal]

Sorry to hear about your life experience

In some ways, it resembles mine, in some other, sadly not (never got any success job wise, never even had the strength to really try after finishing my degree (industrial engineering) barely – not due to being intellectually too bad, but due to being broken emotionally and unable to sit my ass down to do stuff (adhd and executive dysfunction).

If I sum up my life, my life theme is , intelligent mind with a sensitive heart is a curse.

Feels like exactly the curse I'm under as well.

Might get back to you about you offer at some point if I ever find the strength to even comprehensively articulate my situation. Currently that seems way too much work and I can't get myself to write it all up because I'm just way to exhausted talking and writing about all this (or to do anything apart from lying in bed, watching some series, masturbate or going to have a smoke).

How come that after 20 years you havent found a suitable method to CTB? That seems odd.

Cheers

 

[ctb_warrior]

Sorry to hear about your life experience

In some ways, it resembles mine, in some other, sadly not (never got any success job wise, never even had the strength to really try after finishing my degree (industrial engineering) barely – not due to being intellectually too bad, but due to being broken emotionally and unable to sit my ass down to do stuff (adhd and executive dysfunction).


Feels like exactly the curse I'm under as well.

Might get back to you about you offer at some point if I ever find the strength to even comprehensively articulate my situation. Currently that seems way too much work and I can't get myself to write it all up because I'm just way to exhausted talking and writing about all this (or to do anything apart from lying in bed, watching some series, masturbate or going to have a smoke).

How come that after 20 years you havent found a suitable method to CTB? That seems odd.

Cheers

Thanks for your reply my dear bro.
I can understand your situation
Life is not easy so is not dying
If i talk about how I'm alive, i didn't have access to sasu earlier, and Google is a liar, i oded on benzos, it failed, i oded on other medicines, i fir to medical help that's how I'm still alive..i didn't want to be but unfortunately here I'm buddy