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Hey
@Unending... @LONE WOLF. @heavyeyes thanks for replying ill just address you all in this one post.
To be brutally honest im about as depressed as ive ever been, the last week or so have been particularly rough, flopped at an interview and just days ago my uncle died so everything's just been all over the place.
As for Frankie, he's doing alright for his age, still hanging in there and enjoying his long naps and nightly walk (even though he can't go as fast or as long as he once could). Just as an estimate I would say he has somewhere between 6 months to a year left in him, I dread the day I lose him because really he is all I have left but I also know when the time comes that he doesnt seem to be enjoying his life anymore I will get him euthanised because I wouldnt want to be kept alive when my quality of life is so low.
I cry often just at the thought of what that day will be like, for me and him. I try not to think about it, as I said, im already miserable enough at the moment.
It's nice to hear that you've sorted some things you needed to get sorted
@LONE WOLF. it's always good for peace of mind.
Sorry to hear you're not doing well
@Unending... as ive outlined above, i know the feeling... it's nice to hear that you're about to distract your mind with things, I wish I could do that but my anhedonia makes it next to impossible, I haven't been able to get the focus to read anything for more than like 10 pages since I finished reading The Shining a few months back

. Im going to assume the job you're asking about was the telesales charity job? I got fired from that one a while ago, I think I ended up lasting close to 5 months all up. Im kind of glad because it definetly wasnt good for my mental health.
@heavyeyes I resonate with what you're saying about liking the outdoors but hating people. I want to get back into walking on a daily basis again but I hate that I cant bring Frankie because the walk would be too long and also because I preferably want to go at night to catch the nice breeze but around the area I live it's fairly dodgy at night especially on the paths I would want to walk on, drives me mad, I just wish people had the common decency to mind their own business and not annoy others. I hope you end up getting your license and that your lessons go well. I personally dont plan on ever getting my license, driving gives me far too much anxiety and I simply cant handle it, when I tell people this they just think im crazy and tell me "YoU jUsT nEeD pRaCtIcE!" My learners license actually runs out in a few months time so im not sure what the process is for renewing it, I just hope I dont have to study and take the stupid test again. I only need the learners license as proof of