Counting down the days.

[kalashnikova]

I've tried hanging myself a couple of times, I feel like I was somewhat succeeding. I tried partial suspension with my guitar cable and when I felt the pressure, I started feeling tingly and my vision felt fuzzy aswell as my hearing, my vision was also getting darker and darker and after I backed out, my neck would be marked with the cable marks. Of course, I backed out because I was getting scared but I felt like I was getting somewhere. Could it be that I was getting close to passing out? How much longer would I need to stay there conscious to fully pass out? I have been so suicidal, I genuinely can't take it anymore. Nothing is helping and I am sick of living this life everyday. My first method was to use a shotgun but I don't think I can wait any much longer, I think hanging might be it. I just want it to be as painless as possible.

 

[reyonrays]

Hey there,

Sorry to hear you are going through this, i'm also in the same situation, mine approach would be the sn method.
hope you find something that comforts you and ease your mind, wishing you all the best!

In case you are interested, here is a resource you might want to check out on SS for research purposes:
Collection of videos of successful partial suspension hanging attempts

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand feeling so tired of suffering in this existence, I also just wish to painlessly cease existing and never suffer ever again. But anyway I hope that you find the freedom you search for.