RhapsodyinBerserk
Death in Reverse
- Apr 11, 2023
- 70
So I suffered a mental breakdown related to mental health and my physical health condition in late January. Been at home for almost 4 months but nothing's been getting better, and I constantly bounce between having hope for the future and coming up with a plan to end it all. In the event that I take my own life, I need to accomplish a couple of things before May 21st.
1. Find a reliable way to buy SN.
2. Find suitable dopamine blockers to help with nausea from SN. I'm currently taking Risperdal and I wonder if that could be used in place of a traditional dopamine blocker.
3. Some benzos to help with anxiety from SN. Taking Luvox as well for OCD, wondering if that may help with anxiety from SN.
4. Will for my possessions.
5. Notes for family/friends, maybe video logs explaining what I did/why I did it.
I need money, as I've only got about 50 bucks to my name, and I need to get to the dark web to buy the additional medications apart from the SN. This also gives me time to back out if I realize that killing myself isn't the route I want to take for the future.
1. Find a reliable way to buy SN.
2. Find suitable dopamine blockers to help with nausea from SN. I'm currently taking Risperdal and I wonder if that could be used in place of a traditional dopamine blocker.
3. Some benzos to help with anxiety from SN. Taking Luvox as well for OCD, wondering if that may help with anxiety from SN.
4. Will for my possessions.
5. Notes for family/friends, maybe video logs explaining what I did/why I did it.
I need money, as I've only got about 50 bucks to my name, and I need to get to the dark web to buy the additional medications apart from the SN. This also gives me time to back out if I realize that killing myself isn't the route I want to take for the future.
