Venting Could have killed myself today. Didn’t.

[struggles_inc]

While cleaning, I guess I accidentally made chlorine gas. I was tired, scrubbing the bathroom, so I combined drain cleaner with an acidic bath cleaner and bleach. Understood that I fucked up when I started feeling disoriented and very nauseous.

Ventilated heavily. Sat by the window to breathe in fresh air. Texted… someone. They laughed it off, so I sat alone, considering my options.

I felt like vomiting, so I was debating calling emergency services. Didn't. Just sat in silence. Then another thought appeared. I thought this would be an unfortunate incident. Maybe this shit would just burn my lungs out or give me a fatal poisoning. Nobody would know I let myself die like this. Just an accident. I debated going back to the bathroom, locking the door and pouring more of the chemicals.

Didn't. I thought that would be too impulsive. Nothing is prepared. I didn't really care about how painful it is. I was surprisingly calm, even when I felt like my eyes were itching and my throat was tightening. It just wasn't right, I thought I'm not done yet. So I kept ventilating and sitting by the window.

Maybe I should have used the opportunity. Idk.

 

[Kitsune_BCN]

Its dangerous, yes. The problem is that i dont know how effective as method. It could leave you alive but with lung damage. In higher concentrations it can kill. Its more dense near the floor.

What concentration u need tho, idk

 

[struggles_inc]

I wasn't doing it on purpose, so I doubt I need to know the concentration. Just sharing a story.