Story Converting to Christianity

[nixdeath]

I used to hate God. I was raised a Christian, but I was sexually assaulted by another church member when I was eight. It, among other things, led to a deep depression and a eventual lack of faith in God. He seemed to have abandoned me, and why should I care about a God who abandoned me. I considered myself an atheist, but in reality I simply hated God and what he did to me. Eventually after a drug addiction, and developing BPD, I realized that God might be able to help me. I felt a calling back to him, and while I will never go back to that old church I used to be a member of as a kid, I am planning on joining another one after my move. It has been making me feel a bit strange, on one hand excited to have someone (thing?) that may help, but on the other hand I miss my old life of doing whatever I felt like. Anyway thats just my story wanted to share it, not sure why I chose here its been a long time since I've used this website.

 

[Pluto]

This sounds like a good approach to recovery. Many others have been through the same journey of blaming God for the sins of other people, only to suffer for the lack of community and purpose.

As an aside, I wonder if anything can be done to take action against whoever assaulted you? Otherwise there's the risk of it happening to someone else.

 

[timf]

These sort of crimes seldom have the evidence to be able to prosecute legally. However an anonymous letter to the pastor of the church might prevent the perpetrator from having access to children.

People can have all sorts of problems with churches because churches are run by people. It is not infrequent for people to turn against God or turn away. There are web sites that reach out to those who have had bad experiences (for any one of a number of reasons) and may be useful. One is http://christianpioneer.com/

 

[nixdeath]

Thank you everyone <3

 

[sulli]

i've been thinking recently and can't believe it's been like 12 years since i converted to Christianity. mostly because i have nothing to show for it but i just strayed too much. no more chances for this prodigal son i fear

 

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[nixdeath]

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[stressedmess]

You are strong for being able to open yourself up to the thing that once hurt/betrayed you. I hope your journey goes well and you can find what you're looking for.

I've been contemplating becoming a Christian too because I am aimless. I feel I've exhausted all of my options except believing in something greater than me. But I also carry trauma around religion. Please wish me luck on my journey too.

Thank you,

 

[nixdeath]

You are strong for being able to open yourself up to the thing that once hurt/betrayed you. I hope your journey goes well and you can find what you're looking for.

I've been contemplating becoming a Christian too because I am aimless. I feel I've exhausted all of my options except believing in something greater than me. But I also carry trauma around religion. Please wish me luck on my journey too.

Thank you,

Good luck stressedmess <3

 

[NoLightRemains]

You are strong for being able to open yourself up to the thing that once hurt/betrayed you. I hope your journey goes well and you can find what you're looking for.

I've been contemplating becoming a Christian too because I am aimless. I feel I've exhausted all of my options except believing in something greater than me. But I also carry trauma around religion. Please wish me luck on my journey too.

Thank you,

I have a lot of religious trauma also, but am starting to explore a relationship with God again as part of my recovery attempt. My difficulties with faith are believing in the traditional orthodox doctrines (such as eternal conscious torment in hell, anti-lgbt views, etc.), but I'm trying to ignore the teachings of man-made churches and focus on a personal relationship with Jesus for now.

After years of being agnostic it's quite a shock for me, but I'm running out of options.

Best of luck to you and anyone on this journey.

 

[nixdeath]

I have a lot of religious trauma also, but am starting to explore a relationship with God again as part of my recovery attempt. My difficulties with faith are believing in the traditional orthodox doctrines (such as eternal conscious torment in hell, anti-lgbt views, etc.), but I'm trying to ignore the teachings of man-made churches and focus on a personal relationship with Jesus for now.

After years of being agnostic it's quite a shock for me, but I'm running out of options.

Best of luck to you and anyone on this journey.

thank you, and best of luck to you

 

[Coldpizza22]

I don't know what dominion you're involved with, you only mentioned you're Christian. There's a youtuber, the Reformed Zoomer, he has good videos about Christianity. Here's a video about the different dominions

 

[Rocinante]

Me but visiting a local imam so he can help in assisting with converting to Islam.

 

[idontgiveadvicehere]

i've been thinking recently and can't believe it's been like 12 years since i converted to Christianity. mostly because i have nothing to show for it but i just strayed too much. no more chances for this prodigal son i fear

There are always more chances

 

[sulli]

There are always more chances

for everyone else i believe so yes. i am god's mistake