Venting Confused with life

[AresCohere]

I'm not sure what's going on anymore. At some points about two weeks ago my life briefly started to get better, with my mood improving, and suicidal through the going away. But also during this time, the nights have been getting worse. Scarier, panic attacks, hallucinations, the works. I'm unsure of what's going on, as now the seemingly brief recovery is beginning to go away as my brain gets its grip on me once again.

I don't know what to do anymore. I never feel safe, im always scared, always worried, and I can't tell what's going to happen anymore.

 

[Aisley]

Is all this from sleep deprivation, or are there other factors? And another stupid question, have you tried allergy meds? I swear, I use them for everything, and this time of year really fucks with my head.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds terrifying, to me it's just so awful how existing here can very easily get much worse, existence really is so unnecessarily cruel. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[OceanBlue]

Our brains decide how we feel, it's often unpredictable.

I'm sorry you're feeling this way, I wish I could make it all disappear.