Coming back from recovery

[Queenfatty19]

I have tried for many years to "get better" but alas nothing has worked, Psych meds, talk therapy., nothing. I feel that I should live for my kids but everything inside of me is just so tired of fighting with the thoughts, the feelings, the pain. I feel broken and that I'll never be whole. Anyway my plan is long winded. Because I can't let my family see or know anything. Just no one understands.

 

[madbananas]

I have tried for many years to "get better" but alas nothing has worked, Psych meds, talk therapy., nothing. I feel that I should live for my kids but everything inside of me is just so tired of fighting with the thoughts, the feelings, the pain. I feel broken and that I'll never be whole. Anyway my plan is long winded. Because I can't let my family see or know anything. Just no one understands.

I think I get what you mean. I don't have kids though, but the tiredness for me around all the thoughts, pain and feelings makes me feel like an empty shell just going about life. I don't feel I am alive really or part of life.
sorry to hear you're going through this. Hugs

 

[Queenfatty19]

Thank you.