Venting codependency

[coinlockerbaby]

starting to realize how horribly codependent i am on my partner.

he went on a trip out of the country with his family. he's been gone for a little over a week and still has a week to go. he hasn't been texting much because of how busy he is and it's fucking shredding me to bits.

i haven't had serious suicidal thoughts in a while -- as in, genuinely planning to take my life. but its come back and now i'm back (hi everyone!)... i don't know how i'm going to survive much longer when the one reason i've been living is away from me.

i wish i didn't have to burden him so much and wreck my own mental health in the process. but i can't be happy otherwise. fml

 

[Chemi]

I'm really sorry you're hurting this much. What you're feeling makes sense tho. When you've relied on someone for emotional stability for a long time, their absence can feel like the ground disappearing under you. However, that doesn't make you weak or a bad person. It just means you've been carrying a lot alone for a long time before they came into your life, and it is okay to miss your partner and safety net.

Either way, welcome back