Cocaine addiction

[SadGirl]

I have bipolar disorder with depression, anxiety disorder, and I use cocaine frequently. I want to stop using, but it will be difficult to deal with withdrawal. Has anyone gone through or is going through this? Can anyone help me?

 

[neurotic]

That's awful omg how did you get started on such a hard drug??

Have you considered rehab?

 

[SadGirl]

That's awful omg how did you get started on such a hard drug??

Have you considered rehab?

I recently left rehab for depression, I'm never going back, I want to stop on my own.

 

[neurotic]

I recently left rehab for depression, I'm never going back, I want to stop on my own.

That's very brave of you. I'm sorry rehab didn't work out, but maybe working at your own pace might feel less oppressive. I really hope you can conquer your addiction.
Have you had success before in overcoming similar situations related to hard drugs? That would be a key indicator that you're strong enough and can do this.

 

[nocatwaslost]

Do you have any drug counselling or professional help you can make use of? I know you do not want to do rehab, but maybe an outpatient place can help you?
If not, it can be very hard to do it on your own and I think you will need some kind of support system. I mean it has a reason you're doing coke. Do you have friends/family or anyone who can support you in your endeavour?

Edit: Just found that on this page there is information regarding addiction: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...booklets-digital-resources-megathread.138817/

Can't say how good it is, but you will probably also want to do a bit of research on your own

 

[SadGirl]

That's very brave of you. I'm sorry rehab didn't work out, but maybe working at your own pace might feel less oppressive. I really hope you can conquer your addiction.
Have you had success before in overcoming similar situations related to hard drugs? That would be a key indicator that you're strong enough and can do this.

I used ketamine and managed to stop using it; I'll be able to stop cocaine too, I just need willpower.

 

[mabudachi]

I used ketamine and managed to stop using it; I'll be able to stop cocaine too, I just need willpower.

You got this. Cold turkey is the only way.
It's gonna suck, and it'll be tempting to find something to replace it with. Make sure it's something healthy and you will be just fine. New hobby or something? You'll know what's best for you. And coke ain't cheap, so invest the money you're saving now in yourself. Keep yourself occupied, and don't go near people or places that remind you of it. It will get easier over time and you'll be happier and healthier :)

 

[Eriktf]

im in recovery from addiction myself, get you self admitted for a bit so they can help with withdraws and you dont same access to it, i also started going to AA and NA they can be good

 

[Tired_of_myself]

When I was younger, I used coke… I stopped but my own, I was living with friends and asked my parents to move in with them and stopped going to bars and parties for a while… focus on studies, work and taking care of my dog (miss him). Nobody knew what I was going through, it was my own battle… I only got confidence to move out my parents house again when I manage to have a drink without the need to do any kind of drugs… I'm almost ten years coke clean now. Hope you achieve what you want.

 

[gunmetalblue]

Cold turkey is the best way. What helps from my experience is to completely erase yourself from every influence of it. Obviously this isn't always possible. And it depends how you use it, as in what contexts. But for example cutting off if needed, or taking a step back from friends or others using, social settings. Like said above, try a new hobby, a new passion or activity anything. Even if seemingly stupid. If you are in a country that has NA, I'd advise to join up if rehab isn't in the cards or not wanted. It's hard as hell. A lot of will power, but possible.
I wish you luck and a smooth journey to sobriety.

 

[mabudachi]

I just finished a book I think you ought to try. "All the Way to the River" by Elizabeth Gilbert. I was hesitant to start it because I didn't realize how punk rock she was. But goddamn! It's a sad but beautiful story about overcoming addiction, and the effects it can have on the people around you. Totally changed my perception of who I am. An addict. Doesn't matter if I'm using anything or not - that is something I will carry for life.

It's about the escape for me. I've always struggled and wondered why I couldn't handle the real world. There's a line in the book where she's talking about psychedelics - she says that she's never had a bad trip - life was the bad trip. Felt like she was speaking directly to me - I knew the feeling. But that's the addiction talking. We are all strong enough to face this world head on, and the strength and confidence gained by doing so are the same things we lose by using substances.

Just know you aren't alone. All us addicts, regardless what the fix looks like, are denying reality because it hurts too much. But the pain isn't necessarily from reality. It's from our warped perception of it (thanks drugs/trauma )

I've grown a lot more spiritual this year. I'm learning that the highs we can chase here are merely distractions. The true prize comes at the end of the ride. The freedom we've always been longing for will come in due time, but while we're here - let's keep learning and growing.

 

[nocatwaslost]

I used ketamine and managed to stop using it; I'll be able to stop cocaine too, I just need willpower.

how did you manage to stop using ketamine if I may ask? Maybe you can use the same way to overcome cocaine?

 

[SadGirl]

how did you manage to stop using ketamine if I may ask? Maybe you can use the same way to overcome cocaine?

I just don't feel like it anymore, I'm fine, if I have a friend who uses it and we both want to use it, ok. But alone I don't feel the need. I use it if I want. But today I used cocaine, for example, and my money ran out. I'll have to deal with this.

 

[nocatwaslost]

ah so the need just kind of wore off then? lucky you

cannot really give more advice than my first comment but I do hope you can make some progress