Clockwork

[unabletocope]

Life is like clockwork, but the thing about clockwork is its always there and its always running. You want to know if you're ready to die, ready to kill yourself? Do something that goes against the clockwork, do something that puts you out of step with what is clockwork, puts you out of step with the way the machine the herd the system keeps moving, that's how you know for sure that you can't come back from something and that suicide is a viable option

 

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My life is so predictable these days it feels like clockwork. Get up. Take meds. Eat. Work. Eat. Drink beer. Take meds. Try to sleep. Repeat. Even the weekends are just a blur of sameness. My life got a lot smaller since I was hospitalised in 2022.