Venting chronic health issues are fucking unfair.

[waistcoat]

im soooo fucking tired of this.
chronic insomnia. chronic fatigue. chronic pain. chronic this chronic that JUST LET ME FUCKING LIVE NORMALLY

i dont want to DIE i want to be FREE from the fucking suffering that is my literal every day existence

its so not fucking fair.

i did NOTHING except be BORN. i LITERALLY couldn't have prevented this. its my fucking DNA thats wrong.

i just want a single fucking day where im not feeling like im already fucking dying

this is such bullshit

 

[jpeq]

Yeah I feel you, chronic health issues are genuinely ruining my life. It's almost a lose-lose situation, either you live and never fully experience life without having to worry about your health, or you die and it was all wasted effort anyways. I wish there were more ways to ease them or outright cure them or just a way to take a long break every once in a while without worrying about falling behind

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you'd feel so tired, it's just so cruel and dreadful to me how there's all this suffering in existing with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[kurgan]

im soooo fucking tired of this.
chronic insomnia. chronic fatigue. chronic pain. chronic this chronic that JUST LET ME FUCKING LIVE NORMALLY

i dont want to DIE i want to be FREE from the fucking suffering that is my literal every day existence

its so not fucking fair.

i did NOTHING except be BORN. i LITERALLY couldn't have prevented this. its my fucking DNA thats wrong.

i just want a single fucking day where im not feeling like im already fucking dying

this is such bullshit

Can I ask how old you are? My life is over too with physical heath problems at 46

 

[Pale_Rider]

My back is messed up. Degenerative disks, and a few herniated ones. On the down slope anyways.

 

[dontwakemeup]

People with Chronic illnesses often suffer in silence. The world isn't very nice and understanding to us. It's literally hard to survive and do just the basic stuff, but we try. From the medication we take we are often misjudged. I personally mourn the person I was and have accepted all the things I can never do. I'm just patiently waiting to die. I often feel bad because so many people are begging to live and I'd trade places with them if I could. I hope to the OP can find something to smile for or at today. Yesterday, I went and got my favorite ice-cream and smiled. I try to find something to make me happy.

 

[UnusedGate]

I agree, I fucking hate this. The thing for me personally tho that hurts so much is that even without the chronic pain my life would still suck. CTB is the only way out for me.

 

[unluckysadness]

Yesterday I felt so bad because of pain and spams. I suffer everyday, but I thought it was just possible for me to drink that SN shit like a lemonade to get it over.
It's not only unfair, it's cruel. People judge you or are treating you like a child. No wonder we're suicidal. We have good reasons to be so

 

[Busridin'26]

Hard relate to everything in this thread.

 

[lookingglassinsect]

It's unfair that there's no way to improve your health. In an ideal world, there should be ways to do so that actually depend on you

 

[pain247]

Understand.

 

[waistcoat]

Can I ask how old you are? My life is over too with physical heath problems at 46

i'm 21,,,

 

[UnusedGate]

i'm 21,,,

We're similar in age. It's so fucking unfair. All my friends are out doing shit and i'm here on a forum to figure out killing myself. I hate this.

 

[waistcoat]

i wasn't allowed a normal childhood because of my health,
i wasn't allowed a pain free existence,
at least i'll get to have a peaceful death

 

[Heartbroken Nurse]

I am 38 with multiple chronic health problems. It's ridiculous really. So much chronic pain and fatigue. Fibromyalgia, mixed connective tissue disease, ankylosing spondylitis, two chronically torn rotator cuffs, bursitis, degenerative joint disease, osteoarthritis. And that's just the painful ones. I also have Ehlers-Danlos, Hashimoto's, and atrial septal defect. Like, what quality of life is this? Just let me die already.

 

[fallendevil]

Although I have the privledge of not experiencing such pain, I've read a stories of people with T1D, Fibro, etc. and their lives sound like literal hell. It's literally the reason why most people got addicted to opioids by accident. I see why Luigi Mangione did what he did, and the CEO of Texas Roadhouse CTB'd for a similar reason. I feel like I'm just listing off examples to make a point, my bad.

It's unfortunate that you guys have to choose this route especially when you want to love life but are physically incapable of it. It's not fair and I'm just so sorry, the system needs to do more and I genuinely hope that we see more scientific breakthroughs.